Monday, March 14, 2011
"How much do you Trust God?" Control vs Surrender
What do I do when I start feeling this way? To be honest I start to panic and then I have the thought, 'who do I need to reach out and talk to about it?' The more I stay in isolation about it.. the worse it gets. This can apply to just about anything in life. So I ask the question 'who can I turn to for support?' Sure enough God provided someone today to remind me that what I am doing does matter and that I have a HUGE purpose here in life and that I need to just let go and let God lead and guide me. God is all powerful and if I could just keep that in mind there would be no need for me to even TRY and control things.
When are there times in your life that you feel if you didn't control things that things would go spiraling out of control? Isn't it funny that we think we are more powerful than God? When did we learn we had to do things all by ourselves? Where do we get the idea that we know better? I know for me, it started when I was real young. I would even say when I started to use food as a substitute for other things. I didn't know any better. I remember several times thinking I had to carry this heavy burden of overeating myself and that God didn't need to be included in any of that. As a matter of fact, a story that came to me will be the very first chapter of my book as I lead into this very lesson. It's God that is standing right beside me and is just waiting for me to give up control of EVERYTHING. The sooner I learn this lesson the sooner I can be an instrument in His hands and therefore I stay in a place of learning and being able to be lead. The problem is, I keep trying to take back those things that at times I have surrendered. Again thinking I know best.. again thinking I am more powerful then it leads me down a road of distrust. Does this make any sense? No... AND it has taken time for me to trust that God will catch me as I step into some of these very scary places.
This is a lesson I keep having to learn it seems.. over and over and over again. To Trust or Not to Trust? It comes down to that. Do I trust that he will catch me when I feel like I am falling... Do I trust that the right people will come into my life.. Do I trust that what I am doing is making a difference.. Do I trust in my inner most voice to lead and guide me.. Do I trust that everything in life is PERFECT.. just as it should be... Do I trust that the people that are in my life right now are here to teach me... Most IMPORTANTLY .. Do I trust God that He is my Master and my ultimate guide and will never lead me astray? My answer to all of those is.. YES.. and I show that by living a life of FAITH! I live in a place of putting myself out there, in helping others, in doing things that most people would never dream of doing! This is how I choose to live my life. I didn't just leave my secure job of 6 1/2 years if I didn't trust in God and what he has planned for me. I am not perfect in my trust.. obviously.. but I will say this much, there is NEVER a day that goes by that I don't thank God for the blessings He has given me.. for the many many people who are put on my path and for the experiences I have had that have brought me to where I am NOW in my life. I do the best I can to stay present.
My most recent quote that has come to me says.. "Do your VERY best... and let God do the Rest!" I know that is true. He doesn't ask any more of you. Some days your best doesn't seem like very much.. the important thing at the end of the day is that you gave it your all. He knows your heart and your soul and your intentions. I don't care who you are or what you do in life, He LOVES you! He knows you! He wants you to be happy and find EXTREME JOY in life! There is absolutely NO desire of His to see you suffer. That is the adversary that desires that. God knows how powerful each and everyone of us is but until we find that power and ignite it within us all, our light will never shine! I hope to be a beacon of that light to show you it's possible. I said to someone this weekend looking straight into her eyes... "I see you .. because I know you.. and because I AM YOU!" We only see in life what we see within ourselves. When we start trusting in God we see God and therefore we can see God in each one of us. I see beauty in others because I have learned to see beauty in myself.
ACT NOW: Take time to see yourself. Make a list of things in your life you are trying to control. Ask yourself the question, "Why am I trying to control this and what is it that I need to do to surrender it and allow God to take it?" "God won't take what you are unwilling to Give!" I know this is true. Trying to control things just makes things worse. Start today to get clear and conscious of what it is that you try and control. It could be your kids, your spouse, your weight, your boss, your friends, your family, your finances, your housework, your in laws etc. What I have found is I am powerless until I surrender it all over to God then God is able to work through me which in turns makes me powerful.
Writing this blog is an example of that. I was not in a place of surrender until I started to write. I used my surrender 3x5 card, reached out for help, started to write and then let God work through me in my writing. I hope some part of this has touched your heart.. because I know it has touched mine. So with that.. my last thing I will say is "Get out of your FAT brain.. and into your BIG heart!"