Wednesday, March 30, 2011

"There is no place like Home"

I haven't written in the last few days due to the travel I have been taking to Washington DC to meet with the National Parks division. Wow, what an AMAZING adventure in getting there and back and also the opportunity we had of meeting with 2 individuals regarding the National Parks. Something I am really getting to see in everything that is going on in life is this that there are soo many people who want to take what they have learned and give back to society. I know as we all come together we can be soo much more powerful and can help support one another in living out our dreams and soul purpose in life. There is a great awakening that is happening in the world. I don't know if you can feel it but I sure can. It seems like everywhere I go I keep running into more and more people ready to take some serious action to make things happen.

On this latest trip to Washington DC, traveling on stand by made it quite interesting. I missed or was bumped from 3 flights and my friends that went with me got bumped from 6 flights so there was a lot of opportunity for us to surrender to what is and make lemonade out of lemons and that is EXACTLY what we did. We had said several times to each other how far we had all come when we were ok with what was.. rather than getting upset. Believe me, there was plenty of opportunity for us to get upset but what good would that do, I just kept telling myself that there were people for us to serve and to meet and sure enough we met some pretty amazing people along the way.

As I prepare to leave for Florida to do a lot more networking and learning, I can't help but be grateful for all the many people in my life that I have made contact with so far. I couldn't do what I am doing without all the support around me. I know there are times when I doubt myself and what I am doing but then someone sends me an email or two and reminds me why I am doing all this. I am willing to answer the call and take action. That is really all that separates me sometimes from others who think they can't do this kind of stuff.

I  know for me I only have one chance of living this life. I want to make sure I do it with no regrets and with  A TON of gratitude along the way. It makes all the difference in the world. I also learned this past 3 days that my heart is wide open to ALL people who come from ALL walks of life. It almost seems like my heart can't get anymore wide open and then something comes along where I am challenged and am surprised how willing I am to accept them for exactly who they are. The more I do that I allow this open space where we are drawn to each other in a much more rich and authentic place than I have ever been able to do before.

I can't speak enough about this unconditional love part of life. If only we could see other's as God sees them and love them the same... what a better world this would be. I thought a lot too about the amount of darkness that is in people as we traveled on the bus in DC. It almost seemed like everyone around us was dressed in black and had such sadness on their face. I could almost hear their souls crying out to be acknowledged and loved. I know the pain they might be feeling and I want to bring that light to them and show them just how important their soul is to share with the world. I know the only way this world will shift is one soul at a time and for me I can't do it alone. So thank you in advance to all of those out there who are coming into my path to help bring that light to the world.

I am glad to have been home tonight and as I jump on yet another plane early tomorrow morning to Florida, I look forward to yet again meeting some pretty amazing people along my way. Thank you to all of you who are a blessing in my life. I challenge you to look for all the many opportunities you have right around you to connect with others and to be in service to them because they need you just as much as you need them. We are all connected energetically my friends.

Saturday, March 26, 2011

Wow.. what an AMAZING last couple of days!!

So HUGE step today in my life. The last couple of days have been a whirlwind as I have been preparing for my event in Salt Lake City. It was great to know that I am very passionate about sharing my message of hope with others. What I know about myself is that there is nothing I can't do with God backing me up. After my shopping spree yesterday, which was probably the biggest shift for me in more ways than one and with the event today and then tomorrow taking of to Washington DC, my life is moving faster than it seems I can keep up.

I love it though. God likes speed. The more energy you put towards things.. the faster it goes. As we are boarding a plane really early tomorrow morning, I can't help but look back on the last couple of weeks and where life has taken me. It goes to show, when you get really clear, God starts putting people into your path to help you with what you need.

We surrendered and God provided. How many times in your life have you tried to control the outcome of anything to only be disappointed at the end? I do it all the time. I keep having to learn over and over again to not be attached to what happens. As I practice at it, it seems to get easier. It's like working out a muscle.

As I presented today the 7 steps to FREEDOM from what's WEIGHing you down, it was clear to me how important each and every step is to my own recovery. I know that there are a lot of different programs out there and the wonderful thing is .. is that this world is full of abundance. I absolutely love teaching from my own heart and experience. It flows and is EASY for me to speak from a very authentic place.

It just goes to show things I fear are often times just a doorway to better things. I know now that it's just a matter of time that I will be connecting with millions of people. Not because I am important or my story is so extraordinary.. it's because I choose have a great desire to be in service to others.

Friday, March 25, 2011

"Becky Sampson DISCOUNTED... NO MORE!"

So I was challenged last night by a friend of mine to take on a stretch which included getting a massage and going to our local Dillard's to purchase an outfit from head to toe without looking at the price. I have to say, I didn't realize just how hard it would be to do that. Although I put my shopping at Dillard's off til tomorrow, I did go get a massage earlier today. I have to be honest and say, it was quite difficult to spend the money to do it. Don't get me wrong, I love massages but the only few times I have had one, I was given it as a gift, which by the way took me a year to use and another time I got a huge discount on it.

So this brings me to my point that what I am getting from doing this stretch so far is how many times in my life I have discounted myself. Seriously.. discounted myself. This is totally new to me to be paying full price for ANYTHING for myself. I look around my house and can tell you just about how much money everything cost me. All of my furniture is ripped or has something wrong with it because that is how I got it discounted. My clothes are mostly given to me by others or bought at the thrift store. I have to admit I dress really cute but still ... it's all discounted. Even down to my silverware.. that I bought at the outlets. My chair I am sitting in .. got for $10 from an online. My computer I bought from some kid that was selling it at a HUGE discount. My couch, large over sized chair.. and large oak table were all bought at one of those outlet stores. Of course each one of them having something wrong with it in order for me to have gotten it discounted. My bar chairs..I got at the local thrift store. Even as I am writing this I can't believe just how much of my life I have lived in this space of scarcity and discounts.

After sharing my stretch with a few people today, I have had women come up to me and tell me that they would have no problem going and spending big money on clothes. I have NEVER been that type of girl... obviously. I used to pride myself on the fact that I wasn't one of those women that spent tons of money. What I didn't realize is that my entire life.. I have been discounting myself.

When I was challenged last night to not be attached to the money that any of this would cost me and focus more on the fact that I am a beautiful worthy women who deserves to be treated as such, I didn't realize just how hard this would be for me. I am being serious when I say it kills me to do this and at the same time, I know it's time. It's time that I step up to the plate and start treating myself as the BEAUTIFUL, POWERFUL, CONFIDENT WOMAN.. I am! I can't possibly teach others in this world how to love and honor themselves if I haven't been willing to walk through my own door of worthiness. This doorway to my true authentic beautiful being is unlocking something deep within myself that I haven't been able to tap into until now.

So today was the first step in me appreciating and honoring myself. When I was done with my massage, I drove to the bank and pulled out a $20 bill. I decided that I would donate that $20 to the 12 step program that I work. Money is just money. It's only energy. I am learning to let it flow through me rather than for me to hold it soo tight in scarcity that I can't share it with others. Growing up in a family of 5 kids in the San Francisco bay area with a salary of a college professor, we didn't have a lot. I remember my mother washing all the zip lock bags because she couldn't seem to throw them away. I did the same thing when I got older. I am done living this life of scarcity where I feel like if I pay full price somehow I didn't get a deal. One thing my friend told me was that I am robbing that other person who created the item by discounting them or their services. Gosh.. this is not easy but I am seeing it's a necessary start to me learning to take care of myself and most importantly, NOT discounting who I am.

When I am in service and gratitude in this world, I am open to receive and willing to give. It's an exchange of energy and with everything going on in my life right now, it's VITAL that I step through this and get on the other side so that God can guide me and that I be in a place of receiving. He has a lot to give me right now so I better get my arms open wide to receive the abundance.

ACT NOW: If this calls to you, get $20 and allow yourself to be directed to who needs this. After I pulled my $20 out, my friend said he was going to do the same. It's about not being attached to the paper that we put so much meaning to. It's about paying it forward. In this country we have been given soo much abundance, it's not meant to be kept and horded.... it's meant to flow freely.

Thursday, March 24, 2011

"In .. Total Humility and Gratitude"

I can't even begin to write about how incredibly grateful I am for all the many blessings of abundance I am experiencing right now in my life. I am starting to realize just how much of my life I have lived in scarcity not thinking I was worth ever allowing myself nice things. I almost pride myself on the fact that 70% of my clothes have been donated to me and the other 29% are clothes I have bought from thrift stores. It has become a challenge for me to find the good stuff and then wait for people to compliment me on what I am wearing so I can brag about the fact I didn't pay much for it. I have been told by my friend who is an image consultant that I should NEVER tell people that and now realizing that it has more to do with how I feel about myself than anything else.

After talking to a good friend of mine tonight, I am realizing how valuable I am and that I deserve to have nice things such as massages, pedicures, my hair done, nails, to pay full price for clothing. That is a HUGE one for me. Although some of these things I have started doing for myself but when it came to me paying full price for nice quality clothes, my mind came to a screeching halt. I just can't seem to get through the hump of thinking I am worth that. So.. I couldn't help but realize what my stretch is for tomorrow. I get to go and allow myself to be served at Dillards. I get to not look at the price tag and just enjoy trying on clothes that fit me and that make me feel like a million dollars and then walk out of the store knowing it wasn't about the money. In so doing I get to bless someone else that looks forward to serving me as well as the people that created the designs of all the clothes. I will tell you... to some people this might not seem like a big deal.. to me this is  HUGE DEAL. It's time for Becky to be Becky and to accept Becky for the Beautiful, Powerful woman that I am.

Where would I be if I didn't have AMAZING friends who remind me often these days that I am worth all of it. Not just some of it... but ALL of it. When I am in the mindset of Scarcity, I cut off all possibility to abundance. God is abundance. He wants me to feel beautiful, he cares that I take care of myself.

Something else that I have been holding onto for several years are large bags of baby clothes that I have been collecting from garage sales and such. Hoping that someday I would have a baby and also feeling that I wouldn't have the money I needed to buy them when the time comes. So here I have carried these clothes around for years and am stopping the flow of abundance. My friend helped me see that it's in the giving that I truly receive so I have decided to pull out all the baby clothes and toys etc that I have been storing and give them to people in our community that are in need of those items right now. I told him.. I felt that someone tonight was praying for these things and I am feeling drawn to finally give them up. In doing this, I don't feel like I am giving up the hope of ever having a child but rather allowing the energy of abundance to flow through me to bless others who are in need.

Isn't that how the world works? For me .. I am in such a state of humility right now that I am willing to do whatever it is that God wants me to do because no matter what I know he will provide. It comes down to the trust that I have developed with Him that allows me to do these things.

So.. wish me luck as I step into this world of abundance by allowing myself to be pampered and served through clothes, massage and personal pampering. In order for me to truly teach this to others, I need to walk through my own door of abundance to know first hand what it feels like to honor the true woman that I am.

Monday, March 21, 2011

"Get off the Cross, We Need the Wood"

I remember the first time I heard a friend of mine say that. What a great way to say .. get out of your stuff, stop being a victim in life and start living. This is not a time to stay stuck my friends. There is an army of us that are collecting that are ready to start building a totally different future. It's happening on a daily basis that I meet yet another person that gets this energy that I am living in which is one of wanting to give back and helping others.

What happens to us in life is... we are living or we are dying. There is no such thing as staying stagnant. When we are dying we are full of despair, anger, fear, loneliness among other things. There is a true awakening happening and people in this country are wanting answers to how to create something different. Can you feel it? I know I can. So getting off the cross because we need to the so we can begin to rebuild this country.

I am working on a project where I will be opening 100 healing centers throughout the United States and possibly reaching into other countries by June 2012. I know what it has meant to me to be free from all the garbage that was holding me back and at the same time I am enjoying watching others step from the darkness into light. It give me more and more hope that if we really want to, we can create a completely different reality... a reality that is full of life.. and light.

So more on a serious note.. the cross that we bare in life often feels so heavy. I have thought a lot about this as I have walked the road to recovery the last 2 years. I always felt like it was my job to fix this mess I got myself into. What I learned is the God has already sent His Son Jesus Christ to pay the price for me so that I wouldn't have to suffer. I love what a friend of mine told me last week. .. "Christ has already won the battle. Why are we still trying to win the war?" This is totally true! We are the ones that make it difficult on ourselves. I believe we are set here in life to find joy and peace. I know for me when I wasn't doing so hot in life.. I created a heck of a lot of the opposite. I thought that was just how life was suppose to be. NO WAY.. life is for living, FEELING, enjoying and creating. Now being on this side of the wall, I am doing all those things... I just needed to clean up a bunch of stuff and then get in alignment with God and his magnificent power.

What is it that keeps you in the dark? What is holding you back from being the AMAZING person you are? One of my favorite quotes of all time is. ..

"Our worst fear is not that we are inadequate, our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, 'who am I to be so brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous?' Actually, who are we not to be? You are a child of God: Your playing small doesn't serve the world. There is nothing enlightening about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We were born to make manifest the glory of God within us. It is not just in some of us, it is in everyone and as we let our own light shine we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."

~Marianne Williamson
How often do you fear being who you are? I would venture to say all the time. I know for me it's been hard at times to step into my brilliance. Where do I get the idea that who I am isn't enough? I KNOW I already have all the answers inside of me to live out my purpose in life. I guess I won't know what it's like if I NEVER get out there and try.

Sunday, March 20, 2011

Laura Story - Blessings

I came home from church today and turned on KLOVE Christian Radio and this song came on. It hit me soo hard that no matter what our beliefs are we are all deserving of God's Love for us. I can look back on some really really challenging times in my life and know they all served a purpose for me and my growth. As I listen to this song, I am reminded just how important it is for me to create these 100 healing centers throughout the United States.. and probably spanning the globe. It's time for us to heal. It's time to stand up and allow God to heal our wounds. He is waiting for us to turn our lives over to Him. It's really that simple. I can't be more grateful than I am right now in this very moment for the miracle He has performed in my life and the way He has totally changed my heart not only towards others but more importantly towards myself.

Healing only happens when we are "WILLING" to allow the Savior, who is the Master Healer.. into our lives to perform the miracle. Don't give up before the miracle happens. You ARE His miracle he has created and don't allow anything to crush and destroy His Miracle such as self doubt and fear. We are placed here on earth to HAVE JOY.. not to just observe it in others. FEEL the Joy.. Know.. the JOY.. and LIVE IN THE JOY! You were created to BE JOY! He is waiting on you. Don't let Him down!

Saturday, March 19, 2011

"I SEE YOU, Because I KNOW YOU..Because I AM YOU!"

I can't even begin to tell you the healing that I have experienced in the last 24 hours. Several times this week I have been up very very late into the night working on several things. As many of you know, I sponsor people and my calls start at 6:15 am so needless to say, I am pretty raw but maybe that is PERFECT for me right now. I find myself in a place of a lot of humility. I just cried from the deepest part of me as I work through my own forgiveness. I can't even explain the incredible amount of freedom and joy I feel as I release yet another HUGE block from my aching heart.

Last night I had a conversation with a friend of mine where I KNOW for a fact that God has brought us together to help heal each other. My issues with trusting men.. and his issues with trusting women. Let me clarify that this is NOT about romance....sexual attraction etc. This is about soul to soul connection. We all have people in our lives that play an important role in our journey of healing. Last night was one of the most amazing experiences and gifts I have ever had in my life and at the same time it showed me that I have a gift bigger than I ever imagined in helping others HEAL.

So I took this friend through a process of discovering who he is. Mind you this was all over the internet and I began to cry.. he began to cry and together we walked through this journey of connecting and healing. We all have things in our lives that hold us back. Each one of us also has angels that are places upon our path of life that are there to hold your hand through it all. I am realizing that what I thought was true about men really isn't. What I thought was true about myself.. wasn't. There is goodness in ALL people if we choose to see it. I had to SEE God in myself before I could SEE God in others. Once I got to that point, I can't help but share what it is that I see in others. What happened last night was pure.. love! I am realizing that most men have never been given the permission to feel and express emotion. It's never been accepted and at the same time they are no different than women. Me standing in my own feminine energy giving him the safe space to let things go was EXACTLY what he needed. To both of us we played the roll of past relationships. I may not ever get a chance to go back and heal what damage I have caused however, God has put people in my life to help me give back and energetically heal that part in others that have experienced similar trauma. It was beautiful this process of healing. When he expressed to me how much it meant for him to be allowed to be vulnerable and raw and authentic, I knew I was also living my life's purpose. As I have looked back on my own journey and the men who have crossed my path, there have been several of them where I have found this to be a common experience. When I was married I was scared, I didn't dare be vulnerable for fear of being continually hurt over and over again. Really it had nothing to do with him and more to do with me not trusting myself.

See for many years I was that wife that put my husband down, would constantly be pointing out the fact that he was a failure. Looking back now, I didn't know how to stop the cycle all I knew was I was scared and didn't have the answers. Like I said earlier, I can't go back and change what happened... I can hand that pain over to God and let Him do the healing. I am soo grateful for that knowledge and faith that God will heal it. I know how much he has healed my own heart.

  • Tonight I had the opportunity of SEEing my little neighbor girl who is 4 years old. Every once in awhile there comes an opportunity where I have a chance to connect with my little angel. Tonight she asked me if we could light the candles in my bedroom. Usually that creates a safe space for us to connect in a very sweet way.  So sure enough, she helped me light the candles, we turned off the lights and turned on the Josh Groban. As we layed on my bed with my canopy above us, her with her little head nestled on my arm and her blanky over us, I began to tell her what I saw in her while brushing my hands through her hair. She wasn't as quite and calm as she usually is. It almost seemed as though she was trying to avoid having to hear what I had to say to her. All of a sudden she stops me mid sentence and asks me about my contract on my wall. She wanted to know what it was. I read it off to her since she is too young to read it herself. I then helped her come up with her own. I taught her how important it is that she knows who she is so in that moment of time we came up with .. "I am a Beautiful, Loving, Caring girl!" She caught on quickly and then it came time to record. Here is her saying it while I was filming.

Well.. today has been a great day! Everyday I write my gratitude's and just thank God for absolutely EVERYTHING he has given me. I hope you do the same.

Thursday, March 17, 2011

"The Power of Your Intentions"

This is a GREAT article on John Assaraf's Blog. Each day as I get further and further away from the darkness and move into light which is absolute pure joy and creation. I am seeing more and more clearly how this creation thing works. I believe we all are creators. We create our own heaven or our own Hell on a moment by moment basis. The power of intention works the same way. Whether you believe it or not it's still true. They can prove it scientifically that what you store in your mind becomes your reality.

I remember when I first started seeing how powerful creation was in my own life. It was back in May of 2009 when a friend of mine Donna Root was teaching me about Quantum Physics. At first it was a lot for me to rap my head around and the more I learned about it the more it made sense. Up til that point in my life I had given up to the fact I was a victim to what happened to me in my life. Here I was in an abusive marriage, well over 100 lbs overweight, and hoping no one would find out my little secret that I truly hated myself for who I had become. I didn't feel worthy of anyone's love or acceptance. Donna taught me that I was the creator of all things. Soon this quote flowed from my mouth. The quote is "Creation is perfect in EVERY WAY! If we choose to surrender ALL, we become creators of ALL things EFFORTLESSLY." Really... ??? Think about it. If our thoughts and beliefs rule our feelings.. which then rule our actions we end up with a result. Can't it also be said that creation begins within our thoughts?  Who creates the thoughts?? You do. Look at it this way...

BELIEF'S OR FEELINGS = I am not worthy of love or to be accepted
FEELINGS = Despair, frustration, self hatred
ACTIONS = Overeat and go into an inactive state
RESULTS = Overweight and unhealthy

So .. can you see how at the very root of the problem.. it starts with our very core belief's? We need to get to root of the problem if we ever want lasting positive results. I don't just talk about eating better because you can white knuckle it for a while but if you don't get to the very core of the problem, it will eventually shift back into unhealthy eating and negative thinking. You can plug any kind of RESULT into this equation and work yourself back to figure out what the core faulty belief is.

 ACT NOW: Look at what you are creating in your life? Is it heaven or hell? Ask yourself some tough questions and be willing to see it for what it is. No one has power over you and your own creation. When you get clear on your intention for creations you will get clear on what you want to create from this time forward. Where you are right now is not good or bad... it just is! Accept and honor your past and allow yourself the gift of forgiveness if there is anything that you may not enjoy looking at. Write down 1 thing you would like to create tomorrow and intentionally put a time to have it accomplished by. IT MATTERS.

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

"Out of the Darkness and INTO the LIGHT"

So much of our lives we live in the dark. Why is that? Do you think it might be because we have a hard time seeing the light? I have to say most of my life, on the surface, I seemed mostly happy and positive but in many ways I lived in a silent darkness. Wondering if I was ever going to find my way out.  I remember looking at people that I thought had it all together and wondering if I would ever be able to feel that joyful and put together. Sometimes I could feel the glimpse of hope that I would be able to accomplish that but knew in the back of my mind it was too hard and that given my history that it just wasn't possible for me. Even when I would see people who had lost a lot of weight or come through some very difficult things in their life that somehow they were given some special power that I would never be privileged to have. I kept my hopeless thoughts to myself and hoped someday I would figure out.
As I shared my story tonight in one of our meetings, it's evident to me just how much of my life I have lived in the darkness. I guess I couldn't fully appreciate the light that I am living in now if I hadn't been in the dark for so long. See addiction and weakness lives in hiding and darkness. It's no accident that when I felt lots of shame in my life that I held back my feelings from others and emotionally started to shut down. I figured if I kept those horrible feelings to myself, that I wouldn't risk further rejection from others. What I am learning now is that when I share those most vulnerable thoughts is when I truly start to connect soul to soul with others. Many times it's because it creates a safe space for others to share those thoughts and feelings they have never felt safe to share. Right there is where you can begin to heal. I can't tell you how many times I have heard people that I work with say.. "I have NEVER shared this with anyone." Well.. in the process of even voicing it to someone else releases the energy of it and brings it into the light.

Choose to get out of the darkness. Believe me speaking from experience, living a life where I don't have anymore secrets has given me TOTAL FREEDOM. I can't express to you the weight that has been lifted from me. Even the very things I struggled sharing and getting out, come to find out I wasn't alone. So here I was carrying around my own secrets to only find out that others have done the same thing and it's really no big deal. Dang it... many years of wasted energy. Although I say that.. I also believe everything happens for a reason. Even if you don't feel comfortable sharing things with another person at this time, allow yourself the permission to write it in a journal.

I was telling someone today that I wrote in 20 journals before I got married and when I quickly realized how unhealthy my marriage was, I wasn't about to write any of my REAL feelings down on paper for fear someone would find it. A month after I got married I was pregnant. I didn't want to get pregnant that fast but when it happened, there was no stopping it.. so I thought. Inside.. in my quiet moments, I was scared to death. Not only was I seeing signs of an unhealthy marriage, we didn't have insurance and made very little money. I felt the weight of a freight train coming towards me as I thought of having this baby. I didn't feel prepared and I knew there would be no turning back. Soon into the pregnancy I started having problems. I met with the doctor after only 5 weeks, he told me he couldn't see anything and said he would have my blood drawn to check to see if my levels kept rising. Sure enough they kept rising but still no sign of a pregnancy. This wasn't good and when I reached 8 weeks, I started to miscarry. It was the most painful thing I had ever experienced and not long after that they rushed me into surgery to remove what they thought was an ectopic pregnancy. Sure enough they ended up removing the ectopic pregnancy and blocked off  my left tube. I was terrified and at the same time relieved although I never shared that with anyone.

This and many other experiences caused me to go into major hiding when it came to my emotions and feelings towards wanting children. Although I have always had a strong desire for children, I didn't want to bring them into this marriage that I felt was unhealthy. So each time I would get pregnant, I would secretly hope I would lose it so that I wouldn't have to face my fears around it.  I couldn't risk having others know my true feelings because after all I was married now, not getting any younger and feeling the pressure from others around me to have children. It wasn't uncommon that on mother's day someone would come up to me and tell me .. "It's ok.. you are a mother too." I would think to myself.. 'please don't try and convince me that I was a mother because it was hard enough to deal with the darkness I was living in than to have others try make it all better." Funny thing is it sounded much like the comments I would get back when I was single.

Long story short, that was the beginning of me going into MAJOR isolation and darkness around what was really going on in my life. In my mind, if I ever told anyone how I was truly feeling, I would risk ever being able to have a child. It soon became evident to me that we might have to go the route of adoption or foster care. If anyone of my friends knew the abuse that was happening, they would have to tell the truth of what they knew and that would put an end to me EVER having a chance of being a mother. I couldn't risk that.

Needless to say.. I only wrote in my journal 10 times during the 7 1/2 years or marriage. Even up to the very end, most people didn't have a clue what I had gone through... especially my family. Many of my family members now don't even know what I experienced. It's ok. They don't need to know! So as I continue my journey of healing, my passion as I live a life now in the light is to help others see that LIGHT.. and believe that it is there for you as well. I believe Christ is the light of the world and the ultimate healer. As I have made a conscious decision to align myself with Christ, I have felt the healing power work in my life. If Christ truly is the light, I can't help but get out of the darkness and into the light as I grow closer to Him.

ACT NOW: Take a hard look at where you are hiding in your life. What are the things that you are afraid to tell someone about? Ask yourself, why are you afraid to come out of hiding? What purpose is it serving for you to stay in the darkness over it? Who would you be if you weren't holding that secret? These are all questions I have asked myself as I have gone through this process of cleaning out my closet per say. I hope very much that you allow yourself to journal or to write and process through these questions. If you don't have a journal or some note pad to write in...GO GET ONE! Writing has saved my life and brought me sooo much peace it's unbelievable. It's one of those tools that has truly assissted me in the process of healing.

Monday, March 14, 2011

Victoria and I down at camp Jan 2011

"How much do you Trust God?" Control vs Surrender

So today I am struggling with overwhelm in my life. I know when I am feeling that way I am trying to control it all. I have a lot of things going on with my event coming, my personal one on one coaching among other things. It feels like I have the weight of the world on my back. I know the difference when I feel overwhelm, fear vs when I feel like I am in a place of trust and peace.

What do I do when I start feeling this way? To be honest I start to panic and then I have the thought, 'who do I need to reach out and talk to about it?' The more I stay in isolation about it.. the worse it gets. This can apply to just about anything in life. So I ask the question 'who can I turn to for support?' Sure enough God provided someone today to remind me that what I am doing does matter and that I have a HUGE purpose here in life and that I need to just let go and let God lead and guide me. God is all powerful and if I could just keep that in mind there would be no need for me to even TRY and control things.

When are there times in your life that you feel if you didn't control things that things would go spiraling out of control? Isn't it funny that we think we are more powerful than God? When did we learn we had to do things all by ourselves? Where do we get the idea that we know better? I know for me, it started when I was real young. I would even say when I started to use food as a substitute for other things. I didn't know any better. I remember several times thinking I had to carry this heavy burden of overeating myself and that God didn't need to be included in any of that. As a matter of fact, a story that came to me will be the very first chapter of my book as I lead into this very lesson. It's God that is standing right beside me and is just waiting for me to give up control of EVERYTHING. The sooner I learn this lesson the sooner I can be an instrument in His hands and therefore I stay in a place of learning and being able to be lead. The problem is, I keep trying to take back those things that at times I have surrendered. Again thinking I know best.. again thinking I am more powerful then it leads me down a road of distrust. Does this make any sense? No... AND it has taken time for me to trust that God will catch me as I step into some of these very scary places.

This is a lesson I keep having to learn it seems.. over and over and over again. To Trust or Not to Trust? It comes down to that. Do I trust that he will catch me when I feel like I am falling... Do I trust that the right people will come into my life.. Do I trust that what I am doing is making a difference.. Do I trust in my inner most voice to lead and guide me.. Do I trust that everything in life is PERFECT.. just as it should be... Do I trust that the people that are in my life right now are here to teach me... Most IMPORTANTLY .. Do I trust God that He is my Master and my ultimate guide and will never lead me astray? My answer to all of those is.. YES.. and I show that by living a life of FAITH! I live in a place of putting myself out there, in helping others, in doing things that most people would never dream of doing! This is how I choose to live my life. I didn't just leave my secure job of 6 1/2 years if I didn't trust in God and what he has planned for me. I am not perfect in my trust.. obviously.. but I will say this much, there is NEVER a day that goes by that I don't thank God for the blessings He has given me.. for the many many people who are put on my path and for the experiences I have had that have brought me to where I am NOW in my life. I do the best I can to stay present.

My most recent quote that has come to me says..  "Do your VERY best... and let God do the Rest!" I know that is true. He doesn't ask any more of you. Some days your best doesn't seem like very much.. the important thing at the end of the day is that you gave it your all. He knows your heart and your soul and your intentions. I don't care who you are or what you do in life, He LOVES you! He knows you! He wants you to be happy and find EXTREME JOY in life! There is absolutely NO desire of His to see you suffer. That is the adversary that desires that. God knows how powerful each and everyone of us is but until we find that power and ignite it within us all, our light will never shine! I hope to be a beacon of that light to show you it's possible. I said to someone this weekend looking straight into her eyes... "I see you .. because I know you.. and because I AM YOU!" We only see in life what we see within ourselves. When we start trusting in God we see God and therefore we can see God in each one of us. I see beauty in others because I have learned to see beauty in myself.

ACT NOW: Take time to see yourself. Make a list of things in your life you are trying to control. Ask yourself the question, "Why am I trying to control this and what is it that I need to do to surrender it and allow God to take it?" "God won't take what you are unwilling to Give!" I know this is true. Trying to control things just makes things worse. Start today to get clear and conscious of what it is that you try and control. It could be your kids, your spouse, your weight, your boss, your friends, your family, your finances, your housework, your in laws etc. What I have found is I am powerless until I surrender it all over to God then God is able to work through me which in turns makes me powerful.

Writing this blog is an example of that. I was not in a place of surrender until I started to write. I used my surrender 3x5 card, reached out for help, started to write and then let God work through me in my writing. I hope some part of this has touched your heart.. because I know it has touched mine. So with that.. my last thing I will say is "Get out of your FAT brain.. and into your BIG heart!"

Sunday, March 13, 2011

"Ignite Your Spark!"

So sorry I haven't written in a few days. I have been at the "Ignite Your Spark" event here in Salt Lake City. It was AMAZING to see so many powerful women and some men together learning and experiencing speaking our truth together. I can't think of any better job in the world than what I do. For most of you, you might not know that 6 months ago I quit a job I had for 6 1/2 years to pursue my dream of making a difference in other's lives. I had no idea what this was going to look like but I felt as though it was finally time to move on and I trusted in that feeling and knew it would work out. It was one of the most important decisions I have ever made. At the conference Suzanne Evans taught us that the most important thing in life you can do is to make a decision. I made a decision to go after my dream and passions and it has been quite the ride for sure.

As I have my first event coming up next Saturday, I am feeling both excited and anxious. I absolutely love the fact that I will be bringing a MASSIVE amounts of value to people and helping them along their own journey of weight loss. I know the amount of frustration there is around it and I want to be the voice of hope to those struggling. I will give you exactly what it is that I do.

At this event, I ended up meeting 6 other women out of 200 that had released a huge amount of weight. It was neat to connect with them and hear all the different ways they did it as well. My mission is to collect all kinds of stories of people through out this country that have taken this bull by it's horns.... made it happen. I want to show this country that this can happen without surgery and without pills. Truly.. the magic pill is.... Willingness to work a healthy program and to take care of yourself.

What a great blessing it was to spend this weekend with the people I did and to be apart of something that helped me get clearer and clearer on who I am and what my message is. Speaking my truth is what God has placed me here at this time to do. It's clear to me that I also get to help others do the same and as you get clear with your own truth and speak it, you will find a power within you that you thought was lost but instead it was just hidden.

Friday, March 11, 2011

"Truth is Truth"

What's soo interesting to me is how so many people in this world can live totally different lives but somehow end up with the same truths. How is that? Well, I believe it's because truth is truth. I can't tell you how many people I meet everyday that when we start talking about all the things we have learned as we have gone throughout our lives, it's exactly the same.

For instance, one thing that comes up a lot is this truth about creation. Think and Grow Rich concept. I would say it also applies to losing weight. It really does matter what you store in your mind. I say, "Get out of your FAT Brain and into your BIG heart!" It's true. If you allow all this garbage negative thinking to occupy your mind, it will manifest itself on your body or in other areas of your life. I can tell just by talking to people what kind of thoughts they have. There are advantages for living this conscious life as well as at times it feels like a lonely place. Sometimes I wish I could go back to not knowing as much then I could just not have to make tough decisions but overall I like living the life I do. It brings me a ton of peace.

Universal truths come to all people. It feels like a whirlwind of law of attraction. It was told to me tonight that the clearer I get.. the quicker God is able to bring people into my life to make it happen. As I prepare for some very big things in my life, God is just plopping the exact right people on my path. It still just amazes me how this happens. So.. my truth is I don't have to try and control anything other than stay in a place of gratitude for every moment of this journey I am living.

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

"Emotions as they Relate to Relationships"

Emotions are a tricky thing. We think we are ruled by them and I guess if you want to believe that then they will do just that. I instead believe that our emotions address us to come and teach us about ourselves. We all have emotions of all kinds and none of them are good or bad.  At times in my life, I swear I felt as though my emotions were going to jump out of my chest and choke me... no wonder I went into the food to change my state of consciousness. Now looking back, I was scared to death to even address those emotions I felt. For instance, rage was an emotion that I felt a lot of shame around. I felt, because of the rage that was in me, I couldn't possibly trust myself around anyone let alone myself. Even when I did get pregnant early on in my marriage, I hate to admit it but I hoped the pregnancy wouldn't stick. I wasn't sure I could handle having kids with this rage inside of me. I am soooo grateful that I don't feel that now and have healed from that awful emotion. I personally think it had a lot to do with the flour and sugar I was eating. Those foods were making me crazy.

It's funny, men wish women weren't so emotional and women wish men were more emotional. But look at how society treats each other as we address these emotions differently. Where in our society does someone say it's NOT ok to feel fear, loneliness or powerless? It's just what you feel. You don't have to react to it.. rather you take appropriate action when you feel it.  I know I have written about this before but I can't stress it enough to accept these feelings as ok. Especially men.

Since I recently have gone through a divorce myself, I realize and value men soo much more than I ever have before. Maybe that surprises you but regardless of what I have experienced, it doesn't change the fact that we together feel emotions and our emotions affect each other as we interact with one another. For instance, when we have wounds or unresolved emotions around a particular sex, it shows up as we interact. This is why it's vital that we do work in healing those parts or us so that we can attract healthiness into our future relationships. No one likes to have past garbage brought into new relationships.. but people do it all the time. I am currently not dating for this very fact. This is time for me to get clear with who I am and to heal from those wounds that have been inflicted on me as well as those wounds I have inflicted on others. See us women have a lot of support around us and it's socially acceptable for us to talk all day long about it. Men on the other hand, it's not widely acceptable to talk about emotions let alone have emotions. In cases of divorce especially when kids are involved, men feel deeply and typically have no one to really talk about it with.

From what I can tell a man's greatest fear in life is the fear of being a failure. Now realizing that, I see what damage I did in my marriage. I didn't know how to support him in a way that I could see past all this poor choices he was making. I couldn't allow myself to be vulnerable and trusting of him to provide emotionally, physically and so forth for me. I made it very difficult for him to succeed. This doesn't mean that because of my actions that he still didn't have personal responsibility but I can see how my lack of support didn't help.

Relationships take work just like anything out there. My relationship with food has taken work to clean up. For me, all relationships whether it be with food, a husband, children or family have emotions around it. I choose to always be aware what emotions come up as I travel through this thing called life and then allow those emotions to be my teacher.

Monday, March 7, 2011

"True Forgiveness is FREEDOM"

One thing that has been an AMAZING blessing to me in my life over the last year or so is this concept of True forgiveness is FREEDOM. I can't tell you how learning to forgive has brought me so much peace into my soul. I first had to learn to forgive myself. When I was married, I was not well. Meaning.. wasn't well in mind, body or soul. I did a lot of damage as well as a lot happened to me. After the fact my former husband asked me the question, "Why did you marry me?" My answer to him was a simple one which was, 'because I was sick.' That is the truth. I was sick. That isn't anyone's fault  nor would I ever change any part of my life because I believe everything happens for a reason. I was sick in the sense, I didn't love myself so therefore I couldn't possibly allow anyone else to love me either. So I ended up attracting into my life another person who was also not healthy at the time which didn't make for, at times, a pleasant relationship. There has been a lot of healing that has happened over the last couple of years for me and I have learned to discover who I am. I first had to get real and honest with what I created during that time. That started with me forgiving myself. That was a tough one for sure. How do you go from years and years of negative self talk, to pushing people away for fear of rejection, tons of beating myself up emotionally, isolation, anger, rage, and self pity and then go to a place of peace around every moment of that being perfect for my journey. The only answer to that for me was that I surrendered it to God and God healed my heart. He healed it so much that I feel compassion for I those people who have hurt me including myself.

I know I still have work to do around this but it still keeps surprising me when something comes up and I am able to give back unconditional love and forgiveness as though I had no walls of fears. It's the fears that I would be hurt again or that I needed to somehow protect my heart that kept me from forgiving. So as I have gone through this process of healing from what I experienced in my life, I am finding complete and utter FREEDOM. What does freedom feel like you might ask? For me it feels light, free, peaceful, full of excitement, Pure love, serenity and calm. It has freed me up to respond rather than to React. I can "BE" without being affected by others. Before I couldn't help but want to control everything...that other person did or said. I felt it was my job to dictate what was right and what was wrong for him. I had no right to do that.. and still I felt if I didn't try and control it that I was somehow giving up on myself and him. Now, it's beautiful to be in a place where I can pray for him, I can send good positive energy his way and to allow him to be him. That's all he ever wanted and that is what he deserves. I feel the same way as well. I am finally free to be me. I can only be me and who I am I truly love and appreciate. I can't say I have EVER felt that before in my life until now.

So much of that freedom comes from the process of God healing my broken heart and allowing myself to feel again. What matters to me? Who am I and what is my purpose here? Who's life am I here to touch and inspire? These are questions I NEVER could have imagined I would have answers to a couple of years ago. I was in so much darkness, I was doing everything I could to just stay afloat and most of the time I couldn't even do that.

So how do you go about learning to forgive? For me it first started with me writing about the pain I was feeling. I would talk to certain people. My counselor was one that helped me see a lot of what I wasn't seeing in myself. I still to this day sometimes doubt who I am and in the amount of an impact I can have in this world. Not good or Bad.. just is. I do A LOT of writing. It has been soo therapeutic for me. It helps me process the feelings I had held inside for soo many years. In many ways isolation was another way of controlling things. If no one knew.. I wouldn't have to be accountable to anyone.

There is no isolation in my life anymore. No more lies.. no more darkness. I am an open book where I have nothing to hide anymore. I am who I am and like I said earlier, I LOVE who I am and I say that with all the humility in the world. I finally accept who I see in the mirror. It's not just what I look like on the outside, more importantly, I LOVE who I am in the inside. My heart is pure, my intentions are clear and I am so grateful for all the many blessings and lessons I have learned along the way. I just can't wait for even more challenging times ahead. I will see them as opportunities not obstacles for that is exactly what they are.

Sunday, March 6, 2011

"FEAR.. what the heck?"

The question I have today is why the FEAR? I was a guest host on "Inspired conversation with Angel Shannon," the 2 hour radio show. I have to be honest with you, it was a bit frightening. Not because I was necessarily on the radio but that I would be flying solo on it today. It's the feeling I get when I am starting a new job. I wanted to get everything right and say the right thing. See this is all just the same old stuff of trying to control things rather than surrendering to what is and allowing God to flow through me. It didn't take long for me to get the hang of it and I am sure it helped that my good friends were there to support me. I know this kind of stuff comes naturally for me because I have a great love for people and to hearing their stories and how they got where they are today.

So .. why the FEAR? Well.. it is just what it is. I think we all feel fear when we are doing things we are not familiar with. It's called getting out of your comfort zone. This was a stretch for me and to be honest with you I shed a tear or two seconds before I went on the air. Angel was cute in telling me that she has never had anyone cry before.. so I was glad I was the first. What I didn't realize at the time was whatever would come out of my mouth would be perfect.

I do know that as I stay true to who I am, it will all work out in the end. It's official I will be putting on my very first 4 Hour Workshop March 26 in Salt Lake City, Utah. I am not that nervous but more excited to share the 7 steps to how I lost my weight. It rings to me to share what is already in my heart and in my soul. I  know that if you follow these steps, you WILL have success. I know because I have experienced it.

So.. regarding FEAR, it's just a darn emotion that addresses me at times and what I need to remember is to not engage in it but rather acknowledge that emotion and then let it go and push through it and ask for God's help in making it through and that's what I did and eventually I felt His arms around me.

I have to say.. this time of my life is AMAZING! I am stretching to new heights and I am grateful that I am willing to take the leap of faith into some very unfamiliar territories in order to share my Message of Hope.

Saturday, March 5, 2011


Do you check your intentions before doing things in your life?  I would venture to say those people who are constantly checking their intentions or motives are living a life more consciously. Why is it important to know our intentions of why we are doing what we are doing? Well for me it's for the purpose of checking in with myself if what I am doing is self serving or is it to be in service to others.

Ego is a funny thing. It creaps up when I am not watching. This is why I need to keep myself aware at all times as to why I am doing things. Ego is where my shame is. When I am trying to prove something to someone to protect my ego is when I get myself in place of unhealthiness. I have come a very long way the last couple of years. Gone through a lot and have experienced a lot of unhealthiness as well as made some very healthy choices for myself. I have gotten to the point where checking my intentions is a normal practice for myself. I have to be honest though in saying that sometimes I don't want to check my intentions because I know if I did and got honest ... I wouldn't get what I want when I want it. Ever felt like this or I am flying solo on this one?

So .. I ask myself all the reason behind why I am running this marathon. There are multiple reasons like, to get myself on a regular schedule of exercise. Since I started with my 12 step program I have been nervous to work out for fear it would make me hungry which would lead me right back into the food. Funny thing now is that you would think that I would be really hungry running as many miles as I do ... and I haven't noticed anything any different than before. So there you go... I let my fear rule me for 2 years.. and keep me from exercising when what I feared never came true. Interesting. Well, another intention of mine is to draw attention to the fact that we can beat this obesity in this country. I am running for that cause. I believe people as a whole in this country are giving up. I want to show them they don't need to ... it can be done. I would say another intention of my is to learn mental toughness. Although this training does take a tole on me physically .. it's much more of a mental game than I realized. I remember how powerful it was the first time I ran through the finished line knowing that I had made it. I had accomplished something that most people never attempt to do .. and I DIDN'T GIVE UP! That moment in time .. changed my life.

ACT NOW: Check your intention today when you find yourself doing things or connecting with people. When you know WHY  you are doing them, it puts you in the driver seat of your life. You get to choose if those intentions are pure or self serving. Choose healthiness over self servings. I am not saying.. to not take care of yourself.. I think you understand what I mean. Are you creating value for others.. or are you searching for ways that other people can serve you? Ask yourself these questions and then clean up your intentions and you will see a HUGE shift in your life. Don't forget to check your intentions for eating certain foods too. That matters BIG TIME!

Friday, March 4, 2011

"What Do You Want?"

"We are at our very best, and we are happiest, when we are fully engaged in work we enjoy on the journey toward the goal we've established for ourselves. It gives meaning to our time off and comfort to our sleep. It makes everything else in life so wonderful, so worthwhile."

What is your truth? What are you living for? Do you even know what you want in life? These were questions I have been searching out my entire life. When I was overweight, frustrated, confused, emotional, .... I kind of knew what I wanted but had no idea how to get there. I have been to soo many different seminars, conferences, workshops, trainings and each one of them I have gotten soo much value from them. They really have made me who I am today and passionate for what I am doing. It took me first getting my body in balance for things to take off. I realized I needed to get clear with who I am and then what I wanted. Many years ago I listened to a book called "How to think Bigger than you ever thought you could think," by Mark Victor Hansen. I listened to it again the other day which made me think back to when I first did his 20 minute exercise. He challenged us to take 20 minutes using a timer to write as fast as we could coming up with 101 things we want in life. I was talking to one of my sponsees about this this morning about how hard it is sometimes to get to the core of what we want. This is a great exercise for pulling out all those wants.

ACT NOW: So .. open that trusty journal of yours and if you don't have one yet.. better get one. I will soon have for sale the ACT NOW Planner/Journal but for now use what you have. Set the timer for 20 minutes and then get writing as fast as you can. Don't stop, don't over think it.. just write like you were a little kid with all kinds of ambitions. This is a time to go deep and HUGE. Nothing you write is too big of a dream. Don't worry about the "HOW" of it.. just write. Also make sure you write what you WANT.. and not what you DON'T want. You will be surprised for sure.

Thursday, March 3, 2011

"I Work for God"

Yeah.. that's right. That's my new answer when people ask what I do. I have been non stop in meetings networking with people back to back for the past 2 weeks straight. I definitely hit my wall today and my mind has turned to mush. I feel like I have told my story and shared my vision with so many people it's beginning to come down to the fact that really my vision for life is simple.. it's to Inspire and to create healing in others. Everything else I do supports that vision. I typed out 6 pages worth of things I am doing right now to work on getting my vision of sharing my message of hope with the world. It's a good thing it doesn't all have to get done today and that everything will fall into place when it should.

See that's why working for God is a great thing. God is the absolute best boss ever. He supports me, cheers me on, encourages me, warns me of danger, shows me the way to go, puts the right people in my path at the VERY moment I need them, allows me opportunities to serve others, is patient, kind and forgiving. Why would you ever want to work for anyone else?

Although getting my message out to the world has taken some serious dedication and hard work, it's fulfilling work. I enjoy it soo much and many times feel like it's moving faster than I can keep up with. Everyday is like 10 miracles one after another and I just keep telling people.. this kind of stuff happens to me all day long. Within minutes of meeting with people, they will raddle off someone's name that I need to connect with. What I am soo impressed with as well is how willing people are to share what they know and how willing they are to help. I could not be more grateful for all these wonderful people I am surrounded by right now. It's like God is putting them all here to carry me through this. I just want to be in service to others and since my heart is soo dang pure people see that and want to jump on board to help in anyway they can. I love it. I feel the same way about them and look for opportunities to help them as well. Lots of HUGE decisions I am having to make right now and sometimes it can be a bit difficult at times to know if I am making the right decision. I guess that's another reason it's good to have the boss I do. He truly shows me the way.

Just as a follow up. I am glad to be receiving texts from people during the day that they got their stuff done. I swear that is how things get done. Many times we are the worst at just buckling down and getting things done and we just need someone to tell our goals to and then BE OUR WORD. It matters that you do what you say you are going to do. It's a beautiful thing to get the text "HANDLED!" Gives me the chills.. knowing someone just took a step closer to accomplishing their life's vision and purpose.

Wednesday, March 2, 2011


Wow.. what an AMAZING DAY! It started off to be honest with me not wanting to do my 5 mile run. In my head I was rationalizing why I didn't have time to run today and that I had too much to do but after telling one my sponsees about it she encouraged me to get up and go so I did. Got dressed and took off for my clubhouse. I don't usually watch tv but I thought I would do something different today and see what was on. As I flipped through the channels I came across TLC where they had a show on featuring different people struggling with obesity. I couldn't really hear much because of the treadmill but got enough of the show that my heart was pounding. Here were these people who were LITERALLY imprisoned by their body and I was watching people shame them over what they ate. The only thought I could have at that time was "Don't they understand and get that these people shame the heck out of themselves every single day.. they don't need anyone else to tell them they are worthless?" I just wanted to jump through the tv set and give them all the love in the world. Now.. I am not for enabling people... don't get me wrong. There is a way to love someone through this and at the same time be firm. There is a difference.

So much of the reason people never recover from issues dealing with their weight is because they give up on themselves. They are tired of hearing about it from people around them. They are tired of trying diet after diet after diet and failing over and over and over again. My experience in working with people is coaching them through the process of healing themselves from the inside out not to force them into submission. I needed to be loved... I needed to learn how to love myself. I had no clue how to do that until now AND it's a process. I then started thinking how I wanted to write the show and see if there was a way they would allow me to come on and go and visit these people. I can't MAKE anyone do ANYTHING.. what I can do is LOVE them through this and if they are ready to learn to love and accept themselves, they will naturally make the changes they need to to head in the right direction. I have experienced this very thing as I work with people.

I got to mile 3 of my 5 mile run today and the thoughts kept nagging at me that I had a busy day and it's ok.. 3 miles is ok. Although my training schedule called for 5. I decided I would go home and drop off my phone and get my hat and gloves and run outside. As I approached my place I noticed my thoughts turning to yet again.. "You have run 3 miles.. that's good enough for today.. you have a busy day and lots to get done." I almost gave up and then my thoughts turned back to the show of these obese men and woman who had literally given up on themselves and I just couldn't give up on me. So I put on my hat and gloves and took off into the cold to run my last 2 miles.

About 7 minutes into that run .. my ipod died. I was left listening to myself breathe heavily. The thought I then had was.. "oh... there you go. Just quit and head home now. It's a sign!" I fought off those negative thoughts and kept going remembering what I had watched earlier. I can't quit.. I committed to myself to run 5 and I will run 5 miles. As I listened to the rhythm of my breathing and felt the cold on my face and hands, I couldn't help but be more present. Pondering on all the things happening and the people I am meeting right now everyday. As I ran my last mile, the son had just crested over our beautiful snowy mountains here and I couldn't help but think back to when I was in the food. The sun was out but there were clouds so it was cold. I thought back to when I was in the food and eating sugar and flour how much that clouded my thoughts.

I have a very important purpose in life and my experiences that I have had are a HUGE gift to me. I get to share them with the world and I am grateful for that. I can't give up. I still have that FAT brain of mine that likes to take over and tell me I am not worth it or that I might as well give up. I can't give into nor WILL I give into it.

I can't even express to you how many amazing people God is putting on my path right now. I decided today to interview 10 people who have had or who are having HUGE success with weight loss and have them completed by next Wednesday. I will have them available for purchase by end of next week so keep an eye out for them. Each interview will be 1 hour long and will be packed with incredible inspiration. Each have lost their weight in their own way and each have a very unique story to tell. The best thing about them is they are all soo passionate about helping others. I will be interviewing 2 of our local ladies on my radio show this Sunday. Karen who is 39 years old, has 6 kids and has lost over 118 lbs. Valerie who is just about to turn 60 yrs old and has just hit her goal weight after losing 181 lbs. Both my VERY VERY good friends and we have gone through this journey together. I will have their interview for free streaming on Sunday if you are interested in listening. Also feel free to call in and ask them any questions you would like. I will post the information and the link on here on Saturday.

I will be posting before and after pix along with bios from each one of my guests that I will be interviewing. If you know of any other success weight loss stories, please email me privately at and I would love to connect with them. Also today I connected with the 2 contestants that are on currently on this seasons biggest loser and I will be meeting with them on Friday.

I am so grateful. I know God is watching over me and is assisting me in reaching MILLIONS of people who are struggling. I am grateful that God is placing other people along my path that have exactly the same mission I do and passion in turning their wounds into wings. Together we are stronger than we could ever be on our own. Together our stories will change the world.

To see pictures of all the amazing people I am connecting with, add me on facebook. Just look me up as Becky Sampson.

Tuesday, March 1, 2011

"There's no Place Like Home"

K.. don't ask me why I picked that title. I sat here at my computer trying to tune into what I should write about tonight and that is what came to me. I guess it's because the last 2 days have been back to back meetings with people networking. It's fascinating to me this process of connecting and at the same time I am realizing it's taking a tole on me. I had to take a break today for an hour or so and get myself grounded back to my roots. So hence the "There's no place like Home" title. I guess I see that as getting back to WHO I AM.

I love what one of my friends said to me today,  "BE YOU.. You are the only You there is!" It's true. Me.. Becky Sampson is unique in my own way and who I am and what I stand for is IMPORTANT. As most of you know as you have kept up on my blog that this has been a journey for me to get to this point AND I have to say it feels good to know who I am and to not have ANYTHING that I hide from anyone. I am a  open book.

I got on my knees today and asked God to lead and guide me and my actions. I expressed to Him that I was His to do with as He pleases. I want to be an instrument in His hands to help others and to help them see that there is hope in this world. I also wanted to know how I could get my message out to the world.  As I got up from my knees, I heard my cell phone buzz. I almost missed the call but it was a lady who had found me on facebook and quickly asked me if I would be on her radio show as a guest. Sometimes I find myself soo amazed with how God works. It's sometimes instantaneous. I ask to get my message out to world.. and WHAM.. phone call comes in and makes it possible. This just goes to show, I am NOT the one driving this vehicle of mine. Yes..of course I believe, I create my own reality but ultimately when I align my will with God's will.. there is endless possibilities.

So after a couple of days of lots of connecting, it's nice to be home writing my blog and connecting yet again with all of you. I have soo much gratitude for the many of you that inspire me as well in my life. We couldn't do this alone. Even those who I meet everyday.. they are people who want to make a difference in the world... they want to give back. I almost feel there is a shift and there is an army of people willing to go to war against this doom and gloom that is out there in our societies. Yes.. there is light. You MATTER! You are uniquely you. No one else in this planet is like you and you have gifts that no one else has. Unfortunately you can't share those with others if you don't see them within yourself.

From my experience, when you get clear on your gifts, God brings people into your life to help you share those gifts with the world if that is your desire. That is what is happening with me. I don't get up in the morning and ask.... who can serve me.. I ask.. who can I serve? What ends up happening is I get opportunities to serve others and at the same time people are soo willing to assist me in my vision and purpose. It's a beautiful thing.

ACT NOW: I am going to challenge each one of you out there if you want to participate to pick one gift you have within you that you can share with the world. Ask yourself, what can you do right now to share that with others and by when are you going to do that? I want you to text me when you get clear. It's ok.. I don't mind getting hundreds of texts. I have unlimited texts.. lol Share with me what your gift is and how you are going to share it and by when. I look forward to your text messages. If you would like you can also put your name on it. I will gather them and post them on my blog for everyone to see. This is going to start my accountability ACT NOW program. I am realizing just how important this is to people moving in a positive direction and it all starts with a simple text. 801-427-0490