Friday, December 31, 2010

Impact Others by Sharing What You Appreciate About Them!

Today I have been told by 2 different people how much they admire me. I can't tell you how much that meant to me. I had NO IDEA that I had affected them or was any kind of inspiration to them. I have to be honest with you. I wonder sometimes if there is anything of value I have to share with others. I know that is my own negative thinking and that is what I am working hard to rid myself of. It's the shadow side of me that doesn't want me to be my brilliant inspirational self.

I wonder how  many times in life I haven't shared with people my true feelings. Just like me, it made my day today to know that the time and effort I put into who I am.. matters to others. It inspires me to continue on through this life doing what I feel called to do.

Yesterday I started reading a book called "Aspire" by Kevin Hall. I have met Kevin and talked briefly about what I am up to and as I get further in his book I am inspired even more to stay true to what it is that I am called here on this earth to do. There are no accidents that this book came into my energy today. Click here to get a copy of it.

Here we are going through life trying to figure out what we are good at and what calls us to action. It helps to get feedback from others because they see things that we are blind to see. That works also with being open to hearing those parts of yourself you don't particularly like. I have a hard time sometimes acknowledging those things. If I am never open to taking a look at them.. I can't change them. "You can't change what you don't acknowledge." On the flip side of that I wonder how many people have given up on themselves because no one took the time to tell them what a difference that person made in their life.

I want to thank those in my life that are willing to share with me how I have affected their life for good. Those kind words keep me going today. They help me dig deeper into my soul to create more value in inspiring others. I can tangibly feel this energy force drawing me towards sharing my story with the world. Every time I go against that, I feel resistance. Every time I stay true to it.... things flow. I am beginning to see and embrace this so called "Calling" I have been given to share the "Message of Hope" to the world.

"The Story" ... Beginning of My Recovery

I was first introduce to this program in February 2009 when a friend of mine suggested I accompany her to Las Vegas to attend an Area Conference. I had only attended one 12 step meeting in my life and really had no idea what they were all about but I agreed to go with her because I felt she needed my support. The minute we walked in the room there was a lady telling my story. I couldn't believe how much I could relate to the things she was saying. Could being a compulsive eater be what I had struggled with my whole life? I have been up and down with my weight all my life and at times be diligent and lose weight .. and then fall off whatever program I was on and then gain everything and much more back until I was sick enough with my body to get back on yet another kind of diet and start the whole process over again. I know many people who feel exactly the same way I do. I searched for answers to what was wrong with me for YEARS.

I remember meeting a water aerobics instructor about 10 years ago who had lost a ton of weight with a 12 step program and thought to myself then that 'Oh yeah.. I am addicted to food," but never did anything about it. Here I was in this conference with about 70 other people who all struggled with this compulsion to eat, telling their stories of recovery. I couldn't help but want to jump on yet another band wagon.. so I thought. I had no idea that this time would be my last stop to my compulsive eating. Soon I found myself asking the people around me how I get a sponsor. Surprisingly, the answer I got was, "You will know when and if this is right for you and when to start." I was READY right then. Probably my compulsion coming out of me again but what the heck. At that point I just wanted to take advantage of the surge of hope I was feeling listening to all these people who had reached a level of peace around their weight and their eating. Finally I convinced someone that I was ready and I got a sponsor. Although I didn't start the program for a couple of days, I was excited. Although at the time I was seeing it just as another diet, looking back I knew deeper in my soul that this time was different.

Now almost 2 years later, I have released a total of 128 lbs and kept it off for the last 6 months and my life has completely transformed. I am very active in helping others through the same process I went through. I have a deep desire to share the message of hope and that there is relief from this compulsion I have lived with my whole life. I now live a peaceful life, free from compulsion to eat. I eat good healthy filling food which by the way my food tastes amazing.  All 12 Step programs are free and we volunteer our time in assisting others as sponsors.

When I first started into this program we didn't have any live meetings here in Utah. At the end of that conference my friend and I talked about starting one out here but it took awhile to see that come about. We started our first live meeting in September of that same year 2009 and now we have 5 live meetings a week from Salt Lake county and Utah County and are the fasting growing area in the world. We know and understand how powerful this problem is and each one of us in this group feel a great amount of gratitude that we have found each other and are willing to support each other through this journey of recovery. People in this country are dying of obesity. We want to shed a light of hope with sharing our stories. 

Thursday, December 30, 2010

Miracles of 2010

In many ways I have experienced a total transformation in my life during the year of 2010. Not just by the massive change in my physical body... but in many areas. Spiritually, I got closer to God with all my heart and cultivating a relationship of trust by studying His words and through a heck of a lot of prayer. Sometimes life gives us challenges to bring us to our knees and teach us that God is the one in charge, not me. I would love to say that I am all POWERFUL and can make things happen but the truth of it is, I am totally POWERLESS without God. I had to turn my life over to Him and continue to do so on a daily basis. Just today, I used my surrender box to yet again, turn my will over. Since then I have felt His hand guide me as to what to do. I wonder sometimes if God shakes His head at me wondering why it takes me so long to turn to Him but he waits patiently for me to surrender on my own. I know when I do, things flow and I can be in service to him in all I do.

Another area of my life that has been transformed is my self worth. I almost can't relate to the woman I used to be. I have come soo far from that woman that didn't have any clue of her worth, feeling alone and afraid and scared to speak her truth. It has been a journey for me to learn what my worth was. Most importantly my worth has come straight from the one who created me... God. Is it ever a wonder that I might have been looking in all the wrong places? I looked to others to validate me. I thought that talents and skills made me worth something and even though they are not bad to have, what I have discovered is, those things don't make me who I am... who I am is a divine daughter of God.. PERIOD!  What I discovered is that I was born valuable into this world just because I am God's creation. He has been waiting for me to discover what he has always known about me since the beginning of time.

A book I have been reading is "Captivating Womanhood." This book is helping me see my true divinity within myself and to embrace the beautiful woman that I am. I realized recently how hard that has been for me to acknowledge that. I am NOT my body and my body doesn't define my worthiness or divinity. Although I believe my body is the temple of my spirit.. my spirit is divine and as I take care of my body then both the body and the soul can shine in their utmost brilliance.

This last weekend I was talking to a friend of mine about how badly I wanted to get  my toenails done but just thought how ridiculous it is to pay $30 for a pedicure. I have been struggling with this idea for well over a year. 'Why in the dead of winter do I want to spend that kind of money on my feet?' I thought to myself. This friend reminded me how important it is to take care of the feet that carry me through life. This friend of mine even gave me the money to go have it done and I still couldn't make sense of it all... until I realized that this was my stretch. Having this done was not about anyone else but was for me. So with my new found courage... I took the plunge and WOW.. I can't even begin to tell you the value I got from this experience. First of all, let me tell you, I sat in that chair doing what I could to stop the chatter in my head and did my best to just RECEIVE. What I learned about myself in that hour in half was life changing. I learned that it's ok to take care of myself. I learned it's ok to be served and taken care of and the greatest gift of all was the flood of ideas that came to me about how I am going to structure my women's retreats. It's almost like God was waiting for me to be willing to RECEIVE. I have been waiting for direction as to how to put together my workshops for 2 1/2 years. I realized how important it was that I experience this principle of receiving first hand so that I can then teach out of integrity about it. Since that day, I wake up with a smile on my face as I look at my beautiful toes.

So another beautiful Miracle of this last year are the many people I have met. I am in ahh.. each day when I meet some of the most amazing people who have been places and done things that are miraculous. They inspire me and teach me along the way. Within the last couple of months, I have met some of the most successful individuals and have learned it takes hard work and determination to get where they are. They teach me to never give up and to go for my dreams and that I have something to offer others. They have helped me see things in me that I haven't been able to see until now.

Another miracle is how I got aligned with the Og Mandino Group. I have learned soo much from Dave Blanchard and in studying the Scrolls written by Og Mandino. I have learned how to love more and to serve more and to receive more and that no matter what my past may be my future is always clean. I have learned what thought processes have been keeping me back and as I study the scrolls, I am shifting those thought processes that are out of balance. You too can go and take a free assessment to find out for yourself what's holding you back. Go to and see for yourself. I know this has been very useful for me. So grateful for the opportunity I have had to implement these principles into my life.

Recently to be introduced to a group called REIC (Real Estate Investment Group). Wow.. what a great group of people who are truly working as a team in support of one another. I have always wanted to work for a group of individuals that function at this level of productivity. Not only does the company care about their employees, they care very much for their members and creating massive amounts of value for them. As I begin my own journey of investing in my financial future with them and in getting my own personal game plan, I am sharing this information with others. I was just hired to be on their sales team. I am honored to be given this opportunity to help others build their own wealth through investing in real estate. Click here to see how REIC works diligently to serve others. Get your own Personal Game Plan Today. You can also download a copy of the book "Straight Path Real Estate" for Free by Clicking Here.

Most importantly I am grateful to God for all He has provided for me. I have made it a daily practice to write down 5 God things or otherwise known as Miracles that I experience each day. As I take notice of them, somehow I am given even more.

Thank you for your friendships as well. I know there are many out there that can relate very much to my own struggles. I am here to let you know that I know how you feel. I know sometimes it can feel like there is no hope but there is hope. You are not alone.  I experience a lot of PEACE in my life and am soo grateful for that. I have lived most of my life without it and it is one of my most cherished possession I have now. I am grateful for an amazing family and for their examples they are to me. Grateful for what is going to be created this next year in 2011 and where God is going to lead me to next.

Please if there is anything I can do to serve you, don't hesitate to call me or contact me. My number is 801-427-0490. I am willing to help in anyway I can. I wish you all an amazing 2011. It's time for us to rise above our challenges. Turn them over to God and allow His loving hand of mercy to flow through EVERY aspect of our lives.

May God bless you and carry you through the next 24 hours. Good night!

Sunday, December 5, 2010


Today was the 3rd time being on Angel's radio show. I am convinced more and more that there is a shift happening in this universe of people's awareness. I don't know if it is just me, but I keep having people brought into my life.. or attracted into my life that really do care to make a difference in this world. Maybe I just shifted the way I saw life to see that there is a lot of good in this world and a lot of passionate caring people who really do care for others. One thing I learned over the weekend at the "Prosperity Summit" conference was that who I am is valuable. As I create Value in this world there is a natural exchange that occurs.

As I am working on developing my workshops, I have found myself a little impatient with the process. Although I know that creation takes time, I am feeling as though I should have it all figured out by now. As I listened to my different audios from my radio shows I did, I can tell the growth spurt I have experienced in the short 2 months between the shows. Wow.. I can't wait to see what happens in the next 6 months. Life doesn't necessarily function on my terms. I have to be patient with the process of creation and I am learning to keep in action and as I keep in action, something is bound to click. Something that will allow me be that light of hope to others.

I can't tell you how passionate my soul cries out to be in service to others. I guess it's because the amount of pain I have felt over my life time I hate to see others to continue to suffer. My biggest message I care to share with people is that you are not alone in your pain or whatever it is that you struggle with. Be open to allowing yourself to receive from others. We are all here on this planet to learn the art of giving and receiving. It's impossible to receive if we are not open to it.

One thing I am really pondering about this last weekend is our light side.. and our dark side. Otherwise known as our Sacred/Soul side of us and our Darkness/Shadow side. Neither one of them is good or bad they are just who we are. Without that duality, we wouldn't have any point of reference to our joy or sorrow. As we learn to embrace the shadow side we learn that there are a lot of amazing lessons to be learned. The dark side teaches us what things we still need to work out. As we learn to live in the light and be the light that we were created to be, we start to feel more peace.

If there is one thing I hear a lot from people is that people are constantly telling me I have this light about me. That light is tangible to people. I contribute that light to me living the way I do now. I eat high vibrational foods, I meditate, I spend time writing and reading and most importantly I work intentionally to be in constant contact with God and ask for his direction. The things I put in my life matter. As I embrace more of the light side (The divinity within me - my true self), I have more light to give to others.

What we focus on ALWAYS expands so it's a choice that you have. If you choose to focus on all the negative in the world, you will ALWAYS see more negative. On the contrary, if you surround yourself with positive people, sayings, words, music and tune out the negativity, you will inevitably be engulfed by more light. That is just the truth of it. You Create your own reality. Create positivity and let go of the negative. It will eat you alive. I know for me this has been a huge shift for me in my own personal life. Like I have said many times before that this last year I have turned off the tv, don't listen to the radio, am really careful about who I surround myself with and how I feel when I am around them, surround myself with good uplifting literature, listen to calming music, spend time in meditation..listening for impressions and be in service to others. This kind of life has brought me a ton of peace. Can't say it's always been easy and at the same time it's been sooo worth it.

I challenge you to look at where in your life you may find a place where you can have time to yourself. Are there things that you need to eliminate that are pulling you down or holding you back. Remember you were born into this world worthy and full of light. You hold special gifts which no one else has. Let that light shine and allow yourself the gift of being you. YOU MATTER.. to the world.. YOU MATTER TO ME.

Friday, December 3, 2010


You.. know... life is a journey not a destination. I am not master of this surrender thing but a fellow struggler in this process called life. I know that with each painful event in our lives there is opportunity for growth if we choose to take it. I think Satan's greatest tool he uses against us is to convince us that we are broken and if he can fill us with doubt about our greatness.. he has got us. We truly are creators in every sense of the word. We create our own heaven or hell on a day to day basis.. and sometimes moment to moment. We are here on this earth to learn to turn EVERYTHING over to God so that he can then direct our paths. He really does see the whole picture. A Quote came to me last year which states.. "Creation is perfect in EVERYWAY. If we choose to surrender all we become creators of all things effortlessly." I can't begin to tell you how true that is for me. I know that with everything in me. God didn't create the world overnight.. it was a process and it works just the same with us in our lives. It takes patience to go through this process of creation. One step at a time. No need to rush .. no need to skip steps. I know for me, even today, I feel frustration when I want to see this creation move quicker. I want to have the final product yesterday. I have always been that way but the true growth happens when I take it one step at a time and make sure I am surrendering all along the way. God will provide me with what I need as I stay connected to him and his purpose.

Thursday, December 2, 2010

So... I am the creator of my own life

So I started the day off with very clear intentions and my results showed that indeed I was very clear. I met some amazing people today. Felt very directed and lead to them. It's soo much fun to put the intention out there and then watch it come to pass. Not to mention it didn't take ANY effort on my part other than to stay clear and keep my eyes open for opportunities.

Getting Clear on Intention

As I head to a 3 day conference this weekend, I am clear on my intentions. I would venture to say most of us don't pay much attention to this practice and therefore go through life just reacting to what happens. Take charge of your life.  You determine your success. This takes work folks and work can be dang fun. "Change the way you look at things and the things that you look at change." - Wayne Dyer. If you think life is hard... well than get ready to live a hard life. If you look at life as beautiful get ready to see the beauty life has to give you. YOU ARE A CREATOR. That is what you were put on this earth to do.

It's like God waits for us to get clear on our intentions of what we want to create so he can then provide us what we want. It's beautiful! It's pure creation.

ACTION FOR TODAY .... Begin your day by writing down 3 things that you want out of that day whether it's connecting with someone specific, being in service to someone or finding the joy in the journey. It matters what you do. Your results are a direct reflection of your intentions. GET CLEAR AND GET MOVING.

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

Been an Exciting Day

Everyday I am soo surprised by the many gifts God gives me. It doesn't mean I always have good days but the more I look for the gifts, the more they show up. I get to meet soo many powerful  people everyday and it just keeps amazing me how truth is truth even though we may all have different journeys that have brought us to it. It's fun to connect with people who understand and get what I am learning. The more I study the Og Principles, the more I am proud to be associated with the Og Mandino group because these principles that we teach are sound lasting principles.

We learned about how to connect with people last night on our coaching call. What a gift to be reminded of this blessing we can give to others to make them feel heard and validated. We all seek that in life. It wasn't long ago that I felt totally alone in this world in many ways. I know how it feels for me when other's are willing to take the time to truly listen to me and allow me the open space to feel what I do at any given moment of my life. I am practicing this skill and I have a ways to go but grateful for this time I have to be coached through it by Dave Blanchard.