Monday, April 25, 2011

"Create a Safe Space for Others to Be Who They Are!"

So.. had many conversations with different people lately where they have given me the feedback that I create a very safe space for them to say what is on their mind without any feeling of judgment from me. This obviously makes me feel good about where I am in life knowing that I can accept people for who they are and at whatever stage in life they may be at. This has taken time to get here believe it or not.

It all started with me accepting myself for me.. getting to know who I am and then having the courage to speak out and be me. So are there times or experiences that we have in life that make us a bit more guarded towards certain people? Haven't we all experienced being hurt and then telling ourselves..."I'm never going to do that again?" Who allows us to be hurt? What kinds of things do we allow to hurt us? So we could literally spend our entire life closed off to others because we are soo afraid to get hurt. What good does that do and who really holds the magic wand out there to protect us from feeling pain anyway? Well, I would venture to say we allow ourselves to be hurt. Many people are afraid to be vulnerable.. including me at times... and at the same time, being vulnerable with others is what bonds us as fellow beings.

So instead of closing your heart off to the world for fear of being hurt, open your heart and as you choose to do so you will find others will open their heart to you. Everything starts with you. It's no one elses responsibility to create that open space but yours. When you open it for others.. it's beautiful to watch this process of authentic communication happen.

I just got an email from a friend of mine where he expressed his appreciation to me for the fact he felt comfortable in sharing who he was. Isn't that what we all want but instead we fall back into our shells.... especially with those closest to us because of past experiences. WHAT IF... we took steps to healing those parts of us that have been .. so called "wounded" and start to reach out to others knowing they want that same connection that we crave. CREATE IT.. allow it.. and know that it is possible to be that open and honest with each other that there are NO barriers to your relationship. What a beautiful place to be. Try it... I promise.. miracles are right on the other side of those walls you have built up around your heart.

Sunday, April 24, 2011

"The Power of Vulnerability" Brene Brown

I love this clip. I know we all struggle with being vunerable at times and on the other hand as I have learned and continue to learn to be open and honest, I have connected with people in ways I had never been able to before. Make sure you spend the time to see this one. It's great!!

"Remember the Reason for the Season" EASTER

So for many this is a very special day. It's the day we remember that Christ gave His life for us. As I awoke this morning, I couldn't help but feel the gratitude for this Easter morning remembering the sacrifice that Christ made for me. As I have gone through my own journey of healing in a HUGE WAY, I almost can't believe the mighty change that has happened not only in my physical body but most importantly in my spirit. There is a tangible powerful influence and role that the atonement has played in my life. As I turned my life over to God and allowed this power to engulf me and my own weakness, I literally have witness and experienced a miracle. Isn't that what the atonement is all about. For me, it's been one of the most important truths I KNOW of. Knowing that God put me on this earth, gave me weakness so that I could learn to rely on Him, then for Him to provide a Savior for me so that I may be be healed from that weakness and draw closer to Him.. is such a gift. I always thought that the atonement was for those who committed great sin but I have learned through my own experience that the atonement is for all of those things I choose to do to draw me further from Him. I don't always make choices in my life that draw me towards Him, rather I find myself at times turning my back on Him. I believe life is full of those types of lessons. I am not always aware that I am doing things that take me away from His light but when I do, I do my best to turn back around and make better choices.

I think of the analogy of airplane and how it is off course 99% of the time. That's like me. My life is a series of opportunities to learn and to grow from my choices and what is going to kick me off balance and what things are going to bring me back to center. Doesn't it sometimes feel like it will never end? Of course.. that's why "Life is a Journey.. not a Destination." The most important thing to remember is be PATIENT with yourself. We were created imperfect for a reason. So remember the reason for the season and turn to Him to find the answers to what you seek most in your life. Christ knows each one of us intimately. After all He suffered for each and everyone of us. Don't allow yourself to suffer for that which He has already paid the price for!

Thursday, April 21, 2011

"Good Morning Everyone! DECIDE Today .. to create an AMAZING Day!"

I only have a few minutes to write this morning but I wanted to thank everyone in my life today as I begin this day in CREATION. We truly have the power to create whatever it is that we want TODAY... so don't let another minute pass you by without first being grateful for what you have and then sit down and start creating. It's really that easy. Decide today that you will be grateful, peaceful, in service to someone, thoughtful, in action and healthy. Creation begins with a decision. Thank you for being in my life today... now I need to head out and start creating some pretty awesome things I already have in my very packed schedule.

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

So.. Here's the Deal... I'm Taking on Personal One on One Clients....

Ok.. so many of you know that I have been sponsoring people in my 12 step program for a year in half now and have worked with many people who are working on releasing weight as well as are getting clear in their lives. It's now time that I take this professionally and open myself up to coaching. I definitely am all about RESULTS. To build my clientele I only have (1) more spot available to lock you in at the lower investment price of $250/month. My fees will go up once I fill that last spot.

My ideal client is as follows:

Someone who is finally really ready to make some major changes and shifts in life around their eating habits.

Someone who is willing and able to put the time in to take care of themselves.

Someone who is looking for clarity on other areas in their life like work, relationships, self esteem, business.

Someone who is willing to be honest and real about where they are and where they want to be.

Someone who has a vision of where they want to be but needs help in creating a plan on how to get there.

Someone who is open to being coached.

Someone who is tired of being sick and tired.

For me I didn't force any of my food plan on myself.. I didn't work out like crazy... to be honest with you for the first time in my life.. I learned to accept myself for exactly where I was. This isn't about force.. I help you get your mindset in place and then the weight takes care of itself. It's easier than you think. I love people through this process which is a different way for many people. I believe we have beat ourselves up our whole lives, I won't be contributing anymore energy to that.. in fact, I teach you just the opposite.

You want to release the weight and feel peace around food, I can help. You want to feel better in your own skin, I can help you with that. You want to not have to turn to food in order to deal with your emotions, I can help teach you tools in dealing with that. You want to have more energy and clarity in your life, I can help you do that. Know what your ideal life is but it just seems to be too far out of reach, I can help you in creating a plan to get there and start living that ideal life. I have done all of these things. I have experienced finally living the life I had always dreamt of but never thought was possible. Let me help you also get there. People choose to work with me because they want what I have. I show you how to get it.

So don't wait!  Click Here to email me (Put in the subject line *COACHING*) to set up a FREE  Phone Consultation to see if we would be the right fit for each other. I don't just work with anyone. It's important when you are choosing a coach or a mentor that it be the right fit. I always tell people that after the consultation, you will know if it's right to work with me or not. I look forward to hearing from you and possibly working with you.

Click Here to be directed to the page where the details of the One on One Coaching Program is listed.

Monday, April 18, 2011

"Day of Healing"

Wow.. what a day. I can't express enough about how grateful I am to my 2 friends Peggy Matheson and Angel Shannon. I did some really good work with Peggy first thing in the morning. She took me on a journey in imagery and I released some pretty big stuff. I cried a lot and to me crying is a good thing because it tells me that I am getting through some tough things and then able to move on. At one point during the sessions, I felt a HUGE boulder holding me down and the heaviness of it just about took me out. Once I was able to give that over to Christ, I could immediately feel that heaviness leave me. It was so tangible. It always surprises me how powerful our minds are. So, here's the deal, I believe people are given certain gifts and for me Peggy's gift is the gift of healing. She helped guide me through a process where I got to tap into what my body and soul were saying so that I could at the end of the process be free from those things that have been holding me back. I worked through accepting my beauty, releasing my resentments and sadness as well as fear around future relationships. It's not about me judging what is there for me to work on but rather to just releasing it as it I recognize that it has literally been holding me back from being able to get what I want out of life.

As for Angel Shannon.. I spent 6-7 hours with her in her beautiful space she has in her home where she also does healing work. We cried and laughed together as well as did meditation. It was a beautiful process. Now, normally people don't get that much time with her since her time is very valuable but today I was the lucky one to have been blessed with the time I did with her. She is truly an Angel in my life as she taught me about crystals and she gave so freely of her knowledge. She is currently a facilitator as well as works with people one on one.

Either one of these women create massive amounts of value for people who are wanting help. Peggy is about emotionally healing those blocks we have.. those agreements that we make that ultimately hurt us through life. Angel is about finding ways in dealing with our everyday stresses. Check them both out on Facebook and if you get a chance to work with them I highly recommend both of them to you.

I just need to end this day with gratitude for the blessings I have in my life right now. I can't say all my days are this amazing but for today I stand in a place of gratitude.

Friday, April 15, 2011

"Who's Job is it anyway to heal us from our past??"

Many would say the right answer which would be ours.. but how many of us really do that? I often see people clamoring to find others to help them get validation and to fix their problems. What is it about us that we don't trust who we are and to allow ourselves the time to heal? I know for me I have much of my life looked to others to find the needed validation or relief from my own holes in my soul as I call them. I see people rushing into relationships hoping that that person will then take care of them or will fill those needs that they have. Well, it's not really for me to say what is right or wrong for them just that in my own experience I have realized how important it is for me to work through those parts of me that need to be healed with God. I only suggest to stop making your problems, other people's problems. This is your life.. now take the bull by its horns and take responsibility.

As I find myself single now and not totally open to one on one dating yet, I am intentional about this healing process I am doing all I can to be the healthiest I can in order to attract my very best friend. It is soo important to me to be happy at any stage of my life regardless of whether I am single or not. To be honest with you, I know this particular time won't last forever AND at the same time I am grateful for all the many experiences I am having right now. As I work on me, my connection with God, my healing, finding my passions, discovering my true purpose.. all of it is serving a purpose in the whole bigger plan for me.

I love what someone said last Sunday.. "God already has your life planned out for you, you just need to check in with him." That really sang true to me on a lot of different levels. I guess the only job I have in life is to stay close to Him and to keep doing those things I feel I am directed to do.

As I spoke in Farmington yesterday, it was evident to me again how passionate I am in sharing my message. I love that I don't really prepare much for when I speak. I allow myself to talk about what it is that comes to my mind at that time. I feel the energy and talk to people before the meeting to get an idea of where they are at so I can speak directly to their needs but other than that, I just say what comes to me. It was a great opportunity to share with others what has made all the difference in my life. "We transform our lives and our businesses when we transform who it is that we are." Also a big ah ha for me while I was speaking was "If we don't honor our past we end up carrying it." I have had such high regard for my past because it holds all of the beautiful lessons I have learned from and made me who I am today.

Now.. I believe. If we don't heal from it.. we will attract it. You wonder why sometimes people keep going through the same thing over and over and over again. I believe if we don't truly heal from things or aspects of relationships within us we will attract that back into our lives and keep reliving it until we heal ... or NOT. It's up to us.

ACT NOW: Where are there areas in your life you feel you keep having to address? It could be certain relationships, could be feelings of resentments you have towards a certain person or your thought processes that keep trying to convince you that you can't change. Really look at those areas. What needs to happen or what do you need to do to heal from what's holding you back in letting it go. Sometimes I don't know when I will heal from it but rather that I know I need to be open to that healing and when it comes, I know it will be painful but will it shall pass. We all have things in our lives we need to heal from. It's ok.. you are ok!! Make a choice to get conscious of those areas and then do what you can to move through that process of healing and there are amazing gifts on the other end.

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

"Bleeding Heart - Birthing Emotions"

Wow.. what a day! I don't know about you but sometimes in life there are those days that I feel like I am giving birth to some serious emotions. Even though when I am going through it it feelsl like I am going to die.. I still have this trust that it's all part of the process of healing and moving on. Just because I feel deep emotion doesn't mean there is anything wrong with me. Of course back in the good old days.. these types of emotions would have taken me STRAIGHT into the food. I did everything I could to avoid feeling these deep deep emotions. They were too scary to feel. Tonight was about going THROUGH IT.. not stuffing it, eating it away, avoid it but truly going through it.  I have written about this before as well. When I finally have gotten to a place where I can feel the emotions.. allow them to process and then release.. it's a beautiful thing. I am now at peace and know that I survived the rollercoaster of emotions that flooded through me.

Just as giving birth takes great pressure and effort, there is a release and a precious gift once the process is complete. I feel that way now. I feel a great amount of support and peace that has come over me and I know God carried me through it.

How often in life do we think God has left us in those most crutial times when in reality he was carrying us through it. I know as I think back on the many times in my life I have experienced a lot of pain that it was me that turned my back on God.. not God that turned His back on me. I know as I turn my whole heart and soul over to Him, He will ALWAYS give back in the way He sees fit. I love that. Tonight when my hole in my soul was aching... He filled it. When I just wanted to be held.. He held me. Seriously.. why do I ever doubt that He is with me?

Moments like tonight remind me just how Powerful God really is. There is NOTHING He can't heal. We all need healing in some way shape or form. Rather than fight them.. embrace them. Rather than try and cover emotions up.. FEEL them. They are given to us to be our teacher. We are humans and there is nothing wrong with feeling whatever emotion that comes up.

I learned yet again tonight these core things.. I am loved, I am accepted, I am not alone, people around me care, God provides, to trust the process, that it's ok to just let my soul bleed til it's done bleeding, that surrendering is just about the only way for me to truly let things go and that no matter what happens, I AM PERFECT just the way I am.

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

"From Vision to Reality"

Lately I have asked people the question .."If money was no object, what would you do?" Usually this question and then a few follow up questions helps get to what it is that they are passionate about. It is the coolest thing to watch someone share with me what it is that has been calling to them and then walk them through a process of setting those passions into motion so that they can then become reality. The best part of it is that it's not mine to decide what their passions are, I just support them in accomplishing them. I love to see the energy around them when they can picture the end result actually happening because we have set things in motion to get there.

I would say the same thing is true with weight loss. I know how many times I had cut out my head and put it on some swim suit model's body hoping that something would sink deep into my mind that it was possible for me to be that size or chart out a weight loss program figuring down the exact month that I would hit my goal weight or pulling out old pictures of me when I had briefly achieved what I thought was success when it came to my ideal body. All of these things to help motivate me to get healthy or to imagine this life I had always wanted but felt like it was soo out of reach. Well.. for me I would try to surround myself with motivating things hoping that someday it would sink in enough for me to take action. While those things did help for a brief time, it wasn't until I could clearly see who I was, what was possible and then took ONE STEP AT A TIME to get there that real results started to show up.

It's still hard for me to do that for myself but that is why I hire coaches to do for me what I do for others which is to help me see my potential .. help me get it clear in my mind and then help me create a path to making it a reality. My coach just yesterday was telling me ...."Keep it simple." I tend to want to do everything all at once rather than taking my own advice which is one thing at a time. I didn't lose 130 lbs.. overnight. It took dedication on a daily basis.. one pound at a time... it's the same with other aspects of life.

So.. as of right now I am offering the next 2 people who sign up to work with me at a low investment of $250/month for personal one on one coaching. This includes:

3 (1) hour sessions within a month
Daily accountability forms where you will track your progress and dailies that we will set up together
Setting of 3 goals including .. health, fitness and personal
Unlimited email and texting access to me with questions and needed support.

All sessions will be done over the phone

I am offering it at such a low investment in order to start building my clientele as well as get killer testimonials with tons of good results. I am a very results driven person so if you are ready and would like to make some major shifts in your life working together, contact me via email at or by calling me directly at 801-427-0490. I am only taking 2 people at that price point.


"I am an image consultant, it is so valuable to have people that also believe in the innate value of each person. I am protective of whom I will refer my clients to and I highly recommend Becky. As many are just trying to "sell" Becky is the real thing, she is what she teaches. She can not only motivate and inspire but show the steps to take for not only weight loss success but personal success. I highly, absolutely recommend Becky as a personal coach, speaker-- really anyway that you are fortunate enough to book her time."

Leta Greene
Glamour Connection

"Becky Sampson has continued to be an inspiration to me from the moment I met her. Her personal life story, what she has overcome and all that she is today is a testimony of the remarkable power of transforming oneself and fulfilling a personal dream. She is a constant reminder to me that we are creators of our life and our situations and that we are more powerful in this than we realize. There's no doubt that her message will go to all the world, for it needs to be heard."
Benjamin King,
EnspireLife, Owner

Sunday, April 10, 2011

For Good

This song has given me the permission to really be in a place of forgiveness. I can honor everyone and every situation I have experienced because those things have made me who I am today. I know that this song has helped me get through the last couple of years of my life. I don't hold resentments and anger towards anyone. I believe people do things in life sometimes that are not healthy because they are not well. For the most part, I believe people do the best they know how to do at any given time in life. As I have written before, true forgiveness is complete FREEDOM. I would much rather be free from resentment than be held hostage of it. Forgiveness has NOTHING to do with the other person.. it's more for me than it is for them. Holding onto resentments and judgements only keeps me in bondage.. so let go and free yourself. I know the feeling it has brought to me in my life. I honor my past.... I honor those people who have come into my life as well as those who have drifted out. They have helped mold me into the woman I am today and I am grateful for that.

Saturday, April 9, 2011

"Baiting the Hook"

So got into a conversation tonight with someone about baiting my hook. I mentioned how there are just somethings in life that I don't like to do and baiting the hook is one of them. So, how often in life do we think we have to do everything ourselves even when we know we don't like to do it? I write about this because I don't think we are meant to be doing things that we aren't good at or that we don't like to do. I need to remind myself that there is support out there in the world and people that love to do the things I don't like to do.

I can't stress enough the importance of getting a support team of people around you to help you achieve what it is you want to in life. Just tonight on one of my outreach calls, I was honest in telling a friend of mine that I was struggling. It wasn't long after the call that she showed up at my door to come and support me. What a blessing she was. I cried with her and allowed my soul to leak. I tend to take a lot on myself and  sometimes I just need to be still. I spent other time today just meditating trying to find my center and to find my purpose again. Seems to be a common thing for me right now. Not right or wrong.. just is. While going through this process of change and of healing it sometimes gets a bit uncomfortable. I refer to myself as a diamond in the rough. Diamonds are NOT made by applying a minimal amount of pressure. Diamonds are created by a huge amount of pressure. That is what makes them beautiful. I have to trust the process. Trust that things will come clear when they will and that the right people and the right opportunities will present themselves when they are suppose to.

Another gift I got from this day was the gift of connecting with others. I spend a lot of time in creation and not so much in recreation... meaning just getting out. I know that sounds kind of strange but it's true. I am soo focused on what I need to be doing that I don't take the time to just BE social. I am reaching out, learning to let go.. allowing others to bait my hook and learning to BE me... my authentic, beautiful, loving person that I am.

I can't say that I have always been this way. As I have written many times before I have allowed little things hold me back from me being me and allowing myself to be seen by others. I was so afraid of so many things that it kept me in hiding. Hiding from myself and others. I didn't want to be seen for fear of rejection. That darn rejection thing comes up for so many of us.

I was talking to a friend of mine that reads my blog religiously about the little things that we hold onto that keep us stuck. Gosh, for her it's not wanting to give up the yogurt she is eating.. yogurt???.. for me it was muffins. Doesn't it just sound silly? What are you holding onto that is holding you back from making the choice to get healthy? What is it about making a decision to just let go even for one meal or one day? For me it's the lack of trust in if I will be ok. I know logically I am ok.. but it's in that deepest part of me that thinks I can't live without it. As for my muffins.. it's been over 2 years now without sugar and flour and I am totally fine. Its always a beautiful thing when I hear someone in our program tell me about the huge change they have noticed even within a few days of being off sugar and flour. It always puts a smile on my face.

Well a commitment I made to myself was to get to bed earlier so that I can get the sleep my body needs and I am not perfect at it but am heading in the right direction so I need to head out.  

Friday, April 8, 2011

"Getting Real Clear on my Intentions"

Got another lesson tonight on how important it is to state real clear intentions with others. So much of my life I have lived in hiding of my true feelings for fear of what the other person would think. As I move more into a place of healthiness, I never want to hide anything any longer. That's not to say that I just throw up my whole life onto others within a few minutes of meeting them, it's about not being afraid to be me.

I never want to be known as someone who is not honest and authentic. I can't say I am perfect at this all the time. I still have this part of me that hasn't fully healed from the many years of self sabotage. I do know something about myself and that is I have a huge heart and that heart is what connects me with others ever since I was very young. I am learning now to connect more with myself as it is a continuous journey in self discovery. When someone tells me now how I am feeling... I pause and simply check it with myself...and then see if that resonates with me. I used to just take what other's said I was feeling or not feeling as gospel. I used to think .."they must know better what I am feeling than I do." I really did think that and that is when I lost touch with who I was. This is a very tricky thing. There is one thing to give someone feedback and there is another thing to have someone throw up their stuff onto you. It's not always so black and white and for me I get sucked into the thinking there is something wrong with me.

It all seems to take practice and in trusting myself. I love who I am and who I have become AND it's taken awhile after lots of practice to trust my inner voice that tells me my own truth. I also have to be really careful when I am sharing feedback with others that it is not my own stuff that I am putting on them as well. Wow.. do you see how this can be tricky? PRACTICE.. PRACTICE.. PRACTICE.

I love how life keeps giving me more and more opportunity to grow. I grew tonight after I realized that it's my responsibility to get clear with others.. not their job to try and figure out what I am thinking. I love learning and growing. Never perfect.. .. but always growing. I know I have blogged about this too that life is about "Progress not Perfection," and isn't it a beautiful thing to gift yourself the space to allow yourself to be where you are RIGHT this very moment in life? I know it's been very liberating for me.

Thanks to all of you out there that allow me to be me in sharing my inner most thoughts of my heart with the world. I wish  more people took the opportunity to do this because I know this process of writing just about every night has done amazing things for me.

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

"Beauty is NOT EVERYTHING.... it just is something!"

Isn't that true?? Someone told me today that I was beautiful and I got thinking about that. We put soo much on beauty that sometimes we forget to develop what is inside of each one of us which is absolute brilliance. How often do you find yourself drawn to the better looking people in your life and tend to disregard those around you who may not be as attractive. What is it in us that filters how we see or even judge each other? I know for me, I have to be conscious of the fact that we are all equal in our own right. There is no better than or worse than. As I look back just on the last couple of weeks, there was an example of how much things have changed for me since losing all the weight.

I was rushing to catch a flight in the airport and had to cut through all the security.Wow.. at first people didn't respond but then when they saw that I was serious they started to push me through. I am not sure that would have happened so easily if I was at my beginning weight. I hate to say that but that's how people are. I wish so badly that we could all see the brilliance in each other regardless of the number on the scale. I fall prey to this as well sadly to say. I have thought about going and volunteering at an obese clinic to work on seeing past the weight and into their souls. There is no need for judgement.. no need for disregarding them as anything less than who they really are. Many of times, when I was obese I just needed someone to tell me I was ok just the way I was. Well, thinking back now I am not sure even if people would tell me that .. I wasn't open to receiving it because of all the negative thoughts I had about myself. So .. I get thinking of what I can do. Who knows who I may be able to affect if I spent the time getting to truly know and care for those hurting so badly inside. I know how much it meant to me one time when a guy told me he saw me for who I was and not what I looked like. It made all the difference in the world.

So.. yes, I am more beautiful on the outside these days.. but beauty is just beauty.. it doesn't make who I truly am. The great thing about me now is that I never really had the beauty to carry me through life so I learned to connect with people in other more authentic ways. People are people.... no matter what they look like... as for me I will accept them as such to the best of my ability.

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

"What about this SHAME?"

Sometimes my shame gets the best of me. I think back to the days I was heavy and in my addiction not able to control what I ate. All I could think of was getting the next fix of sugar or flour and then beating myself up over it all after I had stuffed myself so badly I couldn't breathe. I had a similar experience today as I went shopping for clothes for a photo shoot I am doing tomorrow. I found myself going from shop to shop trying on different things and then shaming myself over the things I ended up buying. This shame stuff is horrible. In reality I am always searching for something more than I already have. It's not about the clothes.. it's about the filling the emptiness inside of me I feel sometimes. There is an excitement to me seeing my new self in cute attractive clothes .. AND at the same time, I have plenty of cute clothes I don't need more. It's being happy with what I have and not always needing more. This shame is what will take us if we are not careful. Unhealthy shame is what drives unhealthy behaviors and worse off addictions. I know for me if I am not careful, the shame will convince me that I am not worth living a life of peace and serenity. If I give into the the lies of the shame I will eventually find myself back in the food and worse off, back to my 266 lbs. As for today, I choose not to allow the shame to take over and I divert my attention elsewhere. "What you focus on expands," and for me I can't afford to stay in a place of shame. I have come too far to head backwards.

So it is what it is and as I take a good hard look at where I am in my life, I am grateful for the many blessings I have been given... for the opportunities I am having to connect with some of the most talented, loving, caring people in this world. You may ask, how do I deal with this shame that haunts me at times..well today I am writing about it and getting out of isolation about it. I know when I want to hide, I am not in a healthy place... so I choose to reach out to others. I know the only one who can truly fill the emptiness inside of me is God and as I turn to Him, he gives me comfort.

So.. for tonight, I get my gratitude journal out once again and start listing my gratitude's because that keeps me in a space of love for all that I have. I haven't traveled all over the world but I can only imagine we have it good here in the good old United States. Today as I was out driving around, I couldn't help but be grateful for the beautiful blue sky and the HUGE snow covered mountains I am surrounded by. They provide me such great energy.

I have deep feelings of wanting to be loved just as all of us do. Because of how crazy my life has been lately I feel I have slipped a bit in having that peace. As I took some time for myself and did Yoga tonight, I was reminded how important it is to get grounded and pause from all the chatter that goes on in my head. There are a lot of things in life to distract us from finding that peace.. it takes us consciously making the time to just sit.. ponder... and allow our minds to rest from the worries of the day. Grateful a friend of mine suggested Yoga. I really enjoyed it.

Monday, April 4, 2011

"Back on Track"

Wow.. what an incredibly crazy last couple of weeks. I have to say, I like being home rather than being on the road. What I noticed was how difficult it was for me to keep up with all my dailies I am used to doing  when I am in a different time zone and flying all over the country.

I am sooo grateful to be home now and getting my house cleaned up and finding my center again. This just goes to show how important it is for me to take care of me. I got very little sleep, didn't do my outreach calls, and missed meetings that help ground me.

Just interesting how I just let me go so quickly. To be honest with you, it didn't work. I mean, yes I had fun and I met a lot of AMAZING people but at the same time, I tend to think to myself, I only live once so I might as well stay up, hang out, connect and then I end up really not taking care of myself with little or no sleep.

So what happens when I get off track..... well I just make the decision to get back on track as soon as possible. That is the beauty of taking this life ONE DAY AT A TIME. "No Matter What My Past May Be.. My Future is Always Clean." I love that quote. I am not meant to be perfect and nowhere in this world is it written that I have to be. Thank goodness I didn't get into the food over it all. I realized just how important it was for me to go prepared with all my food for my trip. I never had to worry about what I was going to eat or where I was going to find food or if I would be hungry. I carried all my food with me so when I got hungry I ate. It was beautiful. It allowed me to be present and able to connect with the people that I needed to not to mention saved me a ton of money.

So sometimes I want to be hard on myself when things don't go exactly right. I have to be honest, I have wanted to go there many times but I know how unproductive that would be for me to get down on myself. I learn to love and accept myself for exactly where I am. In reality this has trickled into how I treat and accept others as well. I have had many opportunities lately to go into judgement of others and it's been a beautiful thing to love them unconditionally. Isn't that where we should all be striving to get. I can't say I am perfect at all of this, I just put certain tools in place to help me stay centered and with love and acceptance in my heart.

Today... I chose to write 30 Gratitude's to help stretch me. Usually I write 10 and then 5 "God things." That is what I call things in my day that just wouldn't have come about unless God was involved. It helps me stay in a place of love for myself and others as well as remember that I am not alone in this life. I know that God is way more powerful than I am and I do my best to acknowledge him in ALL things.

Glad to be back from my travels and to get back to writing every night again. Remember that YOU ARE NOT ALONE. Remember that you do matter and that who you are is unique and someone out there in this world is waiting for you to be apart of their life. We all need each other. We all have something to give if we choose to tap into those gifts.

Becky Sampson doing Push ups.MPG