Tuesday, April 5, 2011
"What about this SHAME?"
So it is what it is and as I take a good hard look at where I am in my life, I am grateful for the many blessings I have been given... for the opportunities I am having to connect with some of the most talented, loving, caring people in this world. You may ask, how do I deal with this shame that haunts me at times..well today I am writing about it and getting out of isolation about it. I know when I want to hide, I am not in a healthy place... so I choose to reach out to others. I know the only one who can truly fill the emptiness inside of me is God and as I turn to Him, he gives me comfort.
So.. for tonight, I get my gratitude journal out once again and start listing my gratitude's because that keeps me in a space of love for all that I have. I haven't traveled all over the world but I can only imagine we have it good here in the good old United States. Today as I was out driving around, I couldn't help but be grateful for the beautiful blue sky and the HUGE snow covered mountains I am surrounded by. They provide me such great energy.
I have deep feelings of wanting to be loved just as all of us do. Because of how crazy my life has been lately I feel I have slipped a bit in having that peace. As I took some time for myself and did Yoga tonight, I was reminded how important it is to get grounded and pause from all the chatter that goes on in my head. There are a lot of things in life to distract us from finding that peace.. it takes us consciously making the time to just sit.. ponder... and allow our minds to rest from the worries of the day. Grateful a friend of mine suggested Yoga. I really enjoyed it.