Wednesday, April 13, 2011
"Bleeding Heart - Birthing Emotions"
Just as giving birth takes great pressure and effort, there is a release and a precious gift once the process is complete. I feel that way now. I feel a great amount of support and peace that has come over me and I know God carried me through it.
How often in life do we think God has left us in those most crutial times when in reality he was carrying us through it. I know as I think back on the many times in my life I have experienced a lot of pain that it was me that turned my back on God.. not God that turned His back on me. I know as I turn my whole heart and soul over to Him, He will ALWAYS give back in the way He sees fit. I love that. Tonight when my hole in my soul was aching... He filled it. When I just wanted to be held.. He held me. Seriously.. why do I ever doubt that He is with me?
Moments like tonight remind me just how Powerful God really is. There is NOTHING He can't heal. We all need healing in some way shape or form. Rather than fight them.. embrace them. Rather than try and cover emotions up.. FEEL them. They are given to us to be our teacher. We are humans and there is nothing wrong with feeling whatever emotion that comes up.
I learned yet again tonight these core things.. I am loved, I am accepted, I am not alone, people around me care, God provides, to trust the process, that it's ok to just let my soul bleed til it's done bleeding, that surrendering is just about the only way for me to truly let things go and that no matter what happens, I AM PERFECT just the way I am.