Isn't that true?? Someone told me today that I was beautiful and I got thinking about that. We put soo much on beauty that sometimes we forget to develop what is inside of each one of us which is absolute brilliance. How often do you find yourself drawn to the better looking people in your life and tend to disregard those around you who may not be as attractive. What is it in us that filters how we see or even judge each other? I know for me, I have to be conscious of the fact that we are all equal in our own right. There is no better than or worse than. As I look back just on the last couple of weeks, there was an example of how much things have changed for me since losing all the weight.
I was rushing to catch a flight in the airport and had to cut through all the security.Wow.. at first people didn't respond but then when they saw that I was serious they started to push me through. I am not sure that would have happened so easily if I was at my beginning weight. I hate to say that but that's how people are. I wish so badly that we could all see the brilliance in each other regardless of the number on the scale. I fall prey to this as well sadly to say. I have thought about going and volunteering at an obese clinic to work on seeing past the weight and into their souls. There is no need for judgement.. no need for disregarding them as anything less than who they really are. Many of times, when I was obese I just needed someone to tell me I was ok just the way I was. Well, thinking back now I am not sure even if people would tell me that .. I wasn't open to receiving it because of all the negative thoughts I had about myself. So .. I get thinking of what I can do. Who knows who I may be able to affect if I spent the time getting to truly know and care for those hurting so badly inside. I know how much it meant to me one time when a guy told me he saw me for who I was and not what I looked like. It made all the difference in the world.
So.. yes, I am more beautiful on the outside these days.. but beauty is just beauty.. it doesn't make who I truly am. The great thing about me now is that I never really had the beauty to carry me through life so I learned to connect with people in other more authentic ways. People are people.... no matter what they look like... as for me I will accept them as such to the best of my ability.